Gentle Heartbeats (Jella Jema and Ella)

Gentle Heartbeats: Part 1

Jema's POV

Have you fallen in love many times but always end up cheated, betrayed and hurt. I keep on asking.. Am I not worthy to be love?? Kahit binigay mo na lahat.. still they chose to leave you in pain. I was in the Kiltepan view in Sagada looking at the sea of clouds. After all the broken era of my life.. I took a break and went somewhere solo. The view was breathtaking and It gave me change to think of what happend to me in the past. Maybe I was too focus sa paghananap ng happiness sa ibang tao. I sighed.

"This time.. I chose myself.. and I miss myself so much.." I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.. In haling the fresh air. "Fighting!!!" Sabi ko sa sarili ko.

I was looking around and I saw this girl sitting in the big stone with her eyes close. Nagmemedidate ata. But what captures me was her pointed nose and an innocent face with flawless skin and cool get up. I was looking at her from afar. 

"Cute" I said. 

I saw her opened her eyes and she went straight to the cliff. She then close her eyes again and gradually took a small steps moving closer to the cliff. 

"Wag ka magpapakamatay!!! I ran to her and hinila ko sya that made her fall pahiga saken. Natumba kami parehas  and I was hugging her sa beywang.

"Hey!!! Whats wrong with you??" Galit na tanong ng cutee girl.

"I know hindi ganun kadali pero hindi sagot ang pagpapakamatay." I was still holding her.

Kumawala siya sa saken at tumayo. 

"Ano ba problema mo??" She asked na inis na inis nakatingin saken.

Tumayo ako at nagpagpag ng dumi sa pants ko. "I just saw you walking closer sa cliff.. hindi mo ba nakikita kung gaano ka lalim yan?? Pag nahulog ka... sure akong wala ka ng bukas!" I said trying to defend myself. "Sya na nga tong sinagip sya patong galit na galit" I murmur at pinagtitinginan na kami ng ibang tao buti nalang at kunti lang kami sa aarea. 

"At sino nag sabi magpapakamatay ako????" She angrily asked while inaayos at nagpagpag din ng dumi sa damit.

"Kasi... nasa cliff kana.. pano kung nahulog ka??"  Inis ko na din na sagot sa kanya.

"You know what.. mind your own business" then she walked out.

"Grabeh.. so ungrateful! Cute sana... pero ang taray na sizz" And I just looked at her walked away.  

Huminga akong malalim at ayaw ko masira ang moment na to at sayaw ang view. I was trying to meditate again but then I was kinda distracted na gawa ng nangyare earlier. So I decided to go back to near to my accomodation to find food for breakfast.

Sumisikat na ang araw pero malameg padin sa place. I entered the yogurt house para mag breakfast. I saw a vacant space for solo travelers and I sat down while looking for the menu. I was browsing when I realized na katabi ko si Cutee girl. I was looking around kung may kasama siya pero looks like wala syang kasama ngayon or baka kasi nasa room lang. 

"Hindi sya cute.. ang ganda niya.." Sabi ko sa sarili ko ng makita syang nakatingin sa cellphone nya kahit side view palang. Tangos ng ilong.. pwede na mag -slide. 

"Ikaw na naman???" She said na nakakunot ang noo

"Huh??" Natanga ako kasi nahuli ata nya ako nakatingin sa kanya.

"Sinusundan mo ba ako???... Hey.. please mind your own business." She was about to stand up pero hinawakan ko ang braso nya. 

"Look.. I am sorry.. I got panicked lang kanina coz I thought... you know.."I took a deep breath saka nag salita ulet. "I never realize na ikaw nag katabi ko.. look around.. madaming tao ang looks like ito lang ang vacant" sabi ko while I am still holding her arms. 

"If you want.. I can go somewhere so that you can be at peace.. eating your breakfast.." at tumayo ako.. then biglang tumunog ang tyan ko.. She looked at my tummy... pero I decided na lumabas nalang and sya naman ang pumigil saken.

She sighed and.. "okay fine.. you stay..! I already checked yong ibang kainan and most of it is puno na din. The sound of your tummy seems can't wait another hour of waiting and looking."She said.

I smiled at pinaupo niya na ako. "Thank you" I said and checking again the menu.  Dumating an ang order niya. I saw her na naglagay ng earpods then nagstart na syang kumaen. Nag-order na din ako. 

She was busy also looking at her phone. Nahiya naman ako kausapin pa kasi parang ayaw naman makipag-usap at naka earpods nga. 

"Suplada" Murmur ko at bigla syang tumingins aken. 

"May sinasabi ka??" She asked.. 

"Ahh.. wala... sabi ko tagal ng order medyo gutom na ako" sabi ko nalang at nilagay na niya ulet ang earpods niya. 

After 10mins, dumating na din ang aking foods. Tahimik lang akong kumaen while sya nag bbrowse browse padin ng phone niya. 

SA gutom ko ang bilis ko kumaen... nagbrowse browse muna ako.. then I saw her na tumayo na at umalis. Nag-stay muna ako ng ilang minuto then I was about to stand up when I saw a wallet. Naiwan nya ang wallet niya. 

Kinuha ko at dali dali akong lumabas baka maabutan ko pa sya. But then hindi ko na sya nahagilap. Ang laki ng sagada para hanapin siya.