Gentle Heartbeats (Jella Jema and Ella)

Gentle Heartbeats: Part 27

Ella's POV
I held her the can of beer and she took it naman.
"Don't worry.. Just one can.." I said and ngumiti naman sya.. hinila ko sya and guided her to the shore. Umupo kami sa buhangin. May ilaw naman kaya kahit papano pwede padin tambayan.
"Hmmm.. Jema.. can we now talk?" I asked her I was sitting in front sa kanya and looking at her seriously.
"Yes..we can" she said and opened her beer.
"Why are you mad at me?or bakit hindi mo ako pinapansin.??" I asked
"Obvious naman siguro ang sagot sa tanong mo... lage mo nalang ako iniiwanan without explaination.. though you don't have to explain anything to me... coz we are just stranger cross path somewhere.. had a good time.. but still you left me hanging" she said
"I am sorry" yon lang nasabi ko.
"Why you left after that kissed?" She asked
I sighed before I speak again.
"I was too afraid... naduwag ako" I said
"Takot saan?? Naduwag saan?" She waas confused with my answer.
"Takot na masaktan.. Duwag sumugal.. Everything felt to be perfect..I had a great time with you.. I got mad when you pulled me sa may Kiltepan but when I saw you.. I was stunned. Akala ko okay na.. but when you got drunk and honestly said that you were moving on that time.... I even didn't try to ask your name kasi... baka maghanap ako.. or hanapin kita.. Natakot ako...Kasi.. I was in the situation before... where I fell in love with someone and I didn't know that I was a rebound. Her ex went back and nakipagbalikan sya and after that... nawala syang parang Bola," sabi ko sa kanya and she was just listening.
The night you kissed.. I got drown as well with my emotions but.. a sudden flashback of what happened to me in the past caught me off. Kasi halos nabaliw ako nung iniwan nya ako. That's why I pushed you.. kasi natakot ako na baka gawin mo din saken.."
But then... I like you.. I really do like you Jema.. Naduwag lang ako that time.. pero..
I went back to Sagada after a year.. just hoping to see you even if I had too small chances. I was also hoping baka that time na magkita tayo ulet.. You already healed.
"Bakit hindi ka nagpakilala ng ayos when we saw eachc other sa Texas Road House?" She asked.
"I got panicked.. I wasn't expecting you to see there...When you called me as Kyle... I thought you'll be meeting someone else.. which later on you explained. I was too afraid na kitain talaga yong Kyle na ka meet up mo and aalis ka so I decided na magpanggap.. though later on naduwag na naman ako.. kaya aalis dapat na ako.. but then pinigilan mo ako so I stayed.. I even brought you sa batangas para lang humaba ang time na makasama ka. " I chuckled
"Pero hindi mo ako sinagot when I asked you if you were okay na? Natakot na naman ako so I decided to just let it go.. to let you go... again for the 2nd time"

"I wanted you to like me as me... you were broken and... ayaw ko magustuhan mo ako kasi ako ang nasa tabi mo that time.. I felt that my actions may lead you liking me pero baka maging rebound na naman ako" I sadly said..