Passion & Dilemma

27. Engagement

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Sorry for late update. The college life for me is more hectic than I imagined.

Prerna's POV

I stood near the pool in my house while being dressed in the beautiful blue lehenga, paired with diamond jewelry and glass bangles. I let my hair down and their tip grazed my bare waist everytime I moved.

But despite all the heavy outfits, expensive jewelry and perfect make up, I still felt ugly when I looked at my reflection in the still water.

I could clearly see the real me beneath all this make up and luxury.

I never dared to step in this backyard after what my father did, when my engagement with Ashish was called off. The memory alone was enough to send a wave of terror down my spine.

The abusive slurs, the painful kicks and hard slaps.

I can never forget it. He dragged me here by my hair, while I was begging him to stop. I will chop them off after the wedding.

The social media has quiet down a bit. Their passion of assassinating my character has come to down by a few degrees but it's still there. Even if it is effaced completely, the damage that has been done, cannot be erased.

I can endure anything but not the fingers pointed at my character and my dignity.

I hated the society way beyond I can express in words. If I could, I would burn each and every person who questioned my character. It will always be the ugliest chapter of my life. I wish for this human civilization to go extinct.

I had never wanted to step in here until today. But today, I want to remember and feel what I have been through.

Because for the past few days, I have started to forget my sufferings. And also the people behind the reason of it.

Jayesh. Ashish. ICT. Sarthak.

I have become more determined to stand rock strong against Jayesh. He hasn't been that bad ever since my wedding dates were fixed but he hasn't been better either.

Thankfully, he hasn't been physically abusive for a while now, but that did not stop him from being verbally abusive.

A good change is a good change not watter how small, right?

But in the process of growing resentful against Jayesh, I found myself unwillingly leaning towards Sarthak.

I unknowingly let him in my personal space. Because only in front of him I didn't mind showing the side of me where I wasn't the best person. I never was, I never will be and nor I want to be.

Sarthak saw my flaws, both mental and physical ones, and still wanted me. He did not judge me. He was always so welcoming towards me that I always ended up being cooperative with my stalker despite not liking him morally.

Sighing at myself, I left. The Ahujas have already arrived at the venue and are waiting for us.

As we drove to the venue, I felt nothing. No nervousness, no excitement. Only the thoughts of what happened last time consumed me.

I felt scared of facing people again after the humiliation I had to endure because of the messy engagement cancelation.

"Do not worry." My mother said. "No one except the family is invited this time. Ahujas keep the family matters very private."

Of course. They only invited about ninety people in Naina's wedding.

I looked out of the window and nodded. "I know."