(Friday, 4:30PM, LA)
Cameron pushes me and I fall, hitting my stomach on the steps. I groan, clutching my stomach. "Fuck, Cameron. Why would you do that?" I ask. Max and the others run out, pushing past him and crowding around me. "Are you hurt, Jamie?" Max asks me. "Call my parents. Now." I say. Max grabs her phone, calling my parents. Cameron pushes through everyone.
"What the fuck is going on, Jamie?!" Cameron shouts. I struggle to stand up. "I had a miscarriage, Cameron!" I cry. "I was 5 months pregnant and then I had a miscarriage. I didn't wanna tell you since you were dealing with the death of your sibling. I didn't cheat on you or lie to you. My parents don't even know!" I shout. Cameron looks at me. "I-I can't deal with this. I'm sorry, Jamie." Cameron runs off. I slump onto the ground. Max looks at me. "Phil says he'll be here soon." She says. I nod. Max sits down, hugging me tightly. "I love you, Jamie. I'm sorry this happened to you." She says. I sob, hugging her tightly.
(2 months later, 3rd February, 3:30PM, London)
I stare at the ceiling, watching as frost covers my window. Someone knocks at my door, feebly. I sigh. "Come in." I croak out. Dad walks in, looking at me.
"Hey, bud." Dad says. I don't look at him, keeping eye contact with the ceiling. Dad sighs, wiping the tears from his face. "I'll leave you." The door shuts. Tears stream down my face. I sit up, grabbing my guitar, strumming a few chords. I start sob as I sing, changing the lyrics slightly.
You didn't wake up today.
I didn't get to see your face.
Was it my fault?
Was it karma?
Was your fate in the hands of my conscience?
Cause you didn't wake up today.
So sad we ended up here
So sad, but everything's clear.
Could I save your life,
If I pressed rewind?
I wish that I,
Could go back July last year.
I strum the final chord, sobbing. My guitar hits the floor as I throw it, making a loud bang. I lie down, holding my stomach. "I'm so sorry, baby. I wish you were still inside my tummy. I would've been 7 months pregnant." I cry.
"I wish that I could go back to July last year..."
