I love you

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Tw: panic attack, talk of body dysmorphia, body dysmorphia

(Reece's pov)

I decided to leave early to go pick my girlfriend up from work. I said bye to my staff then got in my car to drive to the other nursery. When I pulled in, I noticed that the car park was empty, even Marjorie's car was gone, which was weird as she shouldn't have left already. I brush it off and put it down to maybe someone needed to borrow it, or she nipped out to get something from the shops. I walk into the unlocked nursery and went to the office, where I found no one. Weird.

I kept walking down to the rooms, checking in each one for anyone. I eventually found someone, Charlotte in the baby room.

"Hi Char, do you know why the nursery is empty?" I ask, as she jumps, not expecting anyone.

"Oh hi Reece, I didn't hear you come in. Yeah all the kids conveniently got picked up early, so all the staff headed home early. I'm just finishing the last few things whilst I wait for Mia to come get me." she replied, adding a slight grin on the end at the mention of Mia.

"Oh ok, thanks, I'll head home, bye Char" I say, walking out of the building, getting back into my car. Why didn't Marj text me, she normally does when she leaves early, I thought as I make the drive home.

I pull into the driveway and there was Marjorie's car, she is at home. I enter the house calling out her name, to which I get no response.

"Darling, please answer me, where are you?" I shout, hoping for a response this time. Instead all I hear is sobs, coming from upstairs. I rush upstairs, panicking, thinking the worst. I open the bedroom door to see my Marjorie, sat in the middle of the bed, sobbing and shaking, clutching her chest, her breathing speeding up. My poor baby.

I walk over to her, not wanting to freak her. I gently climb onto the bed, sitting in front of her.

"Hey gorgeous, it's me Reece. You're safe, you're at home and I'm here, I'm here listen to my voice." I gently talk to her, taking her hands and placing them on my chest.

"Breathe with me. There you go, in then out. Good girl, well done, keep going." I say, as she seems to slowly clam down, her breathing becoming steady, and her sobs fading. For the first time, she looks at me.

(Marjorie's pov)

I can't believe it, I just had a panic attack in front of him. I haven't had one since my teenage years.

"I'm sorry Reece, I really am, I didn't mean to, I just... well something..." i stutter as he just pulls me into a hug. I instantly can feel myself relax at his touch.

"Gorgeous, never apologise, they happen and you can't control them. I'm just glad you're ok, whenever you feel up to talking, I'm here, and if you don't want to talk, I'm still here." he says gently, kissing the side of my head.

"Thank you Reece, really, I'm so lucky I have you. Can we just cuddle in bed for now, please?" I ask, hoping it would be ok, I was not used to having this type of comfort.

"Of course my love, anything you want" he replies, as we shuffle up to the bed and lay down, heads resting on the pillows. I still don't feel close enough, so I scoot right up into his side and push my face into his neck, taking in his every scent, and wrapping my arms around him. His hands instantly go to my back and start drawing patterns all over them.

(Reece's pov)

"Reece?" she asks, turning her head up to look at me.

"Yes gorgeous?" I reply, slightly confused at what would come next.

"Can I talk to you about it, I want to remain like this in this position but can I talk?" she asks, looking at me almost scared, as if she had never had anyone to talk to.

"Of course gorgeous, you can talk, say however much you want and you can stop if you ever want to, I'm here to listen and comfort you." I reply, hoping that it will ease her mind.

"Okay thank you. So, I used to have panic attacks when I was a teenager, they normally happened after my mother would make a comment at me, usually about my body, which led to me feeling really insecure. I stopped having them once I left home, until today. There was this parent that came in and she was going on and on about her kid, something had happened in the room. I was trying to talk about the situation but in her eyes I was obviously the villain." she says, stopping to take a breath. I didn't want to say anything and interrupt her, but I wanted her to know I was listening so I gave her a kiss on her forehead.

"And so I suggested what could of happened, that there was a different perspective and she told me that she didn't want to speak to me anymore because I was 'a fat cow who no one could love' and then she turned to your sister and continued on her argument. I couldn't believe what she had said, I didn't really think that it still affected me until today, I couldn't help but feel the need to cover up, so I put a jumper on. Once she left, Autumn turned to me, and by that point most of the kids where gone, so she said that I could go home, that it was okay to go and that the parent wouldn't be returning to the nursery. I thanked her and got in my car, I didn't let it show that it affected me until I got into the bedroom, and sat on the bed, then her words came back and filled my head, along with my mother's voice, seeing as that was her go to insult towards me, and then you got home and well you know the rest." she finishes off, tears falling from her eyes, and by now we both have sat up and are facing each other.

"Oh Marjorie. I'm so sorry that parent said that, and that your mum was like that." I said, trying to keep my cool, I really hated both these people, and I was easy to fight them, but I had to be there for my girl. I pull her into me and cuddle her, rubbing up and down her back and just sitting there. Finally I broke the silence,

"Darling you are the most stunning, smoking and gorgeous women I have ever met, don't ever let their words get to you because they mean nothing, all they are doing is projecting their insecurities onto you and it's not about you. I love you so so much and I'm so glad you told me, I will never let anyone hurt you like that again, I really do love you Marjorie." I say, pulling out of the embrace and placing a kiss on her lips. She kisses back into me, and eventually we pull away for air. She places both hands on either side of my face, and smiles at me.

"Thank you Reece, you have no idea what you mean to me and how much you have helped me, I love you too, with every ounce of my body, I love you Reece." she says, colliding her lips with mine.

I pulled away after a few moments, "Oh by the way..." I say, and she looks at me, confused, "Is that my jumper, the one I've been looking for all week?" I ask and she just giggles.

"Oops I guess it is, it's so comfy and I may or may not have taken it. It smells of you and that part comforts me when you are at your nursery." she replies and I just laugh, pulling her back in for another kiss.

A/N: I wasn't too sure where to take this one, so apologies if it isn't up to standard

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