I hate you. || woosan ||

|| part 20 ||

Yunho pov:

It is around 16:00 and I just finished my last lectures notes.
I grabbed laptop and put it in my bag. I waved goodbye to my professor and walked out of the auditorium. Before walking directly to the exit of the uni I hung around a bit in the library. Not for studying or projects. No, just to think. I took a deep sigh as I realised the only thing I have left is the football team.

Seongwha and hongjoong haven't talked to me in a while. I have no idea what the fuck wooyoung and San are up to and mingi... is gone. I know I can just reach out myself but... I can't be the person always chasing after their friends. It makes me feel like they were with me for pity.
As I realised that my plan of going to the library to think was stupid I got up from the chair I sat on and quickly rushed out.

As I walk though the endless hallways to the exit, I realised my temporary distraction had ended. Now that my lessons were over I had nothing else to think about besides the girl. Milynn or whatever her name was.

"I am so sorry yunho. This is all my fault. I-I don't even know how to explain this..." I just stared up at her as I sat on the ground. She crouched down infront of me. "Mingi and I met at a party a long time ago. He was drunk at the time and he kept about you." She softly giggled. "He loves you a lot. But at some point he got emotional. Saying you didn't spend time with him. He was afraid you didn't love him. That he did something wrong. He even said he thought that he forced you into a relationship. I reassured him that all of that wasn't true. That you loved him too, but of course he didn't believe me. He was to drunk to even understand what I was saying." My heart broke. Mingi felt like that And he didn't tell me?

"I told him that whenever he felt bad or insecure about your relationship he could call me or text me.i hate to admit it, but I was jealous. He talked about you so lovingly and i wanted that too. So earlier tonight When you said you couldn't hang out, he called me. I-I did horrible things.
I brought weed and told him it would make him feel
Better. He was high out of his mind- and I- I- am so sorry yunho. I feel so bad for ruining everything-"

"Shut up." I said as tears streamed down my cheeks.

"Yunho-"

"Shut up!" I turned around to face Mingi apartment door again. I knew he was angry, but I didn't want it to end like this.

"Yunho, don't go back. He is still high." I knew she was right. I shouldn't talk to him now.

2 days have passed and I still havent heard from mingi. Not only that, I haven't heard from wooyoung and San since Thursday. It just seems like they're all leaving me. I still have seongwha and hongjoong but they're to busy with being in love and shit like that and if there's something I don't want to see right now it's people in love.

I walked out of the big doors, onto the parking lot. Normally hongjoong and seonghwa pick me up at the exit and bring me to my dorm, but not today. I texted them that I'd stay late and that they could leave without me. Just so I can walk back to my dorm in peace. It was about 20 minutes which was actually a perfect amount of time in my opinion.

I reached in my pocket and pulled out my earphones. I plugged them into my phone and opened Spotify to play some music. I scrolled through my playlist, looking for a song to play. I kept scrolling until I came past a song.

Love is banned - Gemini

It was the song Mingi played when we were driving back to his apartment. My finger hovered over the play button for a while, but I didn't play it. I couldn't do it. I know it seems pathetic, but I should just get over him. Anything that reminds me of him has to go.