I hate you. || woosan ||

|| part 26 ||

The party was buzzing with life. People dancing, slowly grinding against each other, jumping around with their hands in the air. People making out against the walls or just in the middle of the dance floors. Loud music and the voices of the students filled the room. The amount of alcohol that was getting consumed was out of the roof. The sickening smell of the liquid filled the air.

Voices around me got blurred into the background as I leaned down towards the table. The white powder infront of me luring me in, like it was magnetic. I felt a few particles enter my throat as I took a deep breath before closing my eyes. I put my pointer finger on my nostril and took a deep breath through my nose. I felt a wave of pleasure wash over my body as the substance entered my body. I couldn't wait until it would kick in. All my problem would be gone once again.

People around me cheered. I felt them encouraging me by hitting me on my back or holding my shoulder. As I straightened my back again, I dabbed up a guy who was next to me. I don't know his name and I honestly don't want to know it. I couldn't care less.

"My guy!" He shouted over the thumping music, The music causing a lightheaded feeling. I nodded at him, which was a bad idea. A wave of dizziness hit me and I got out of balance. I slightly stumbled but someone stopped me from falling over. I heard soft chuckled coming through the music.

"Got you! Be careful, babe." A cheerful and slightly tipsy sounding person said. I carefully turned around to see it was my boyfriend, seongwha.

Immediate panic flooded over me. He can't know.

"Baby," I quickly said. "Let's get out of here."
I whispered as I leaned closer to his ear. I have to get him out of here, get us out of here. He can't know I do drugs. Not after everything we've gone through. Not after I promised I'd get better.

Seongwha pouted and pushed me away from him. "No, no! I want to party! Can't we stay a little bit longer? The party is only just getting started." He whined. Fuck, he has me weak.

I agreed to stay a little longer, but I had to get out of there. Away from the dealers. Luckily, seongwha did just that.

"Come on, joong, let's seek San!" He said as he swung his arms around me, holding me tightly as we walked off.

I started feeling lightheaded, floaty even. The drugs started kicking in. Seongwha was rambling on and on about something. No idea about what, I was distracted. It felt like I wasn't mentally there with Seongwha. It was just my body.

After getting dragged through the crowd of people, we stopped in a small empty corner.
"Where could he be? We looked everywhere." Seongwha said sounding upset.

"It wouldn't surprise me if he was off with some chick." I dryly replied.

"Really? You really think he would do that? He wouldn't do that to Woo," I didn't react, I couldn't. "Right?" He asked. "Hongjoong?" He said after I didn't answer again.

"Yeah, sure." I said, staring through him.

"Hongjoong, are you alright?" He asked while examining me. I felt my heartbeat quicken. This can't happen. Not here. Not now. Not ever.

"Y-yeah fine. Just... dizzy." I managed to mutter out.

"Do you want to go outside?" He asked me as he reached out his hand and cupped my face, stroking my cheek.

"No, it's fine. Let's make another round and look for San, even though I really don't think he is still here." I put my hand on seonghwa's chest and softly pushed him off me.

"You really think he left? He was crying at your dorm last week because Wooyoung lied about sleeping with someone else. There is no way he would ever do the same to Wooyoung. He isn't that stupid, right?"