Lander Oneshots <3

Possessive😔

Genre: Angst💔

Zander's POV🍇:
"You can't be serious..." I say, barely able to talk from the lump that's formed in my throat. "I'm sorry, Zander." My eyes widen slightly at him calling me by my name and not one of his nicknames like he always does. He continues, "I just... can't..." I feel my eyes watering, "Can't what?" I ask, my voice shaky. He stays silent for a moment, his own eyes beginning to well up. "I can't do this anymore... I've put up with it for long enough." I start to get impatient at his lack of explanation. "Put up with what?! Everything's been fine!" I can see him getting mad, which is very rare to see coming from him. "With you! Putting up with you, Zander!" He points at me as he says this. I get more frustrated, "Well you're the one who said my negative traits were fine!" He speaks over me slightly, "Yeah! That's when it wasn't this bad!" I cross my arms, "Luke, you're not helping me to understand why you're DUMPING ME!" He takes a deep breath, collecting himself as he attempts to explain. "Recently, I've felt pressured... yes, I was fine with your jealousy originally, but it's just gotten worse! You never let me leave the house anymore, scared that I might cheat on you. And you know I would NEVER even think about doing that! Your trust in me is so little these days. So I've felt like I have to be perfect and be around you all the damn time! I can't live like this, it's obvious I was blinded by love when we first got together. And I've tried to help you, I've tried to get you a therapist or even let you talk about your feelings to me but you just decline it. My best advice is for you to talk to someone or let your feelings out in some way so you can work on your jealousy. But... if it doesn't get any better soon... I couldn't see us getting back together." By now, tears are running down my cheeks rabidly. Have I really been that possessive? I look away, ashamed of myself and feeling guilty for making him put up with me. Then, he says something that I thought I'd never hear him say. "So I think..." He pauses, hesitating to finish his sentence. "We need to take a break from one another." I snap my head up to look at him, he started crying a while ago, but I didn't notice from the thick cloud of tears in my eyes. I suppose it's a better outcome than breaking up but taking a break is just as hard. I quickly walk up to him, trapping him in a tight hug as I sob into his shoulder. "Please, Luke... don't leave me..." I choke out between my heavy sobs. I lift my head up to look at him, "I can change...!" He sighs and gently shoves me off him, "You can only change if I'm not here with you. You need to focus on yourself and get me out of your mind." I shake my head, grabbing his hands. They're cold, as if all the warmth and love from before had been sucked out of them. "If I'm going to do this I need you by my side. Don't you understand...? It's impossible for me to get you out of my head!" He slides his hands out of mine, "Well you're going to have to learn too. I'm doing this for both of us, Zander, which means I need to focus on myself too." I put my shaky hands down to my sides, tears still pouring uncontrollably out of my eyes. Luke walks over to the coat hangers and grabs his coat, putting it on. Just as he grabs the door handle, I grab his hand again. "Luke, please... don't do this..." "Zander, let me go." His voice is a tone I've never heard before. He sounds broken. I let go of his hand, not wanting to hurt him any further. Before he leaves, he turns around to look at me one last time, smiling weakly. "I still love you... and I don't think I will ever stop loving you... so I hope we still have a chance. But for now, goodbye Zan." He uses his nickname for me once more as he exits out the door. I sniff, slowly wiping the salty tears off my face. I turn away from the door, no longer feeling that warm feeling I have when Luke leaves. Now, everything is cold, and I feel numb. I glance back at the door, whispering, "I love you too..."

A/N: I hate reading angst (as I will cry), but I sure love writing it!!

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