I Want To Love You - The Vampire Diaries

Chapter 10

Chap 10

***Selenas POV***

     It was early in the morning.  The sun was shining, the wind blowing in from my open window.   Wait...open window?  I never opened my window....  Well the point is i wanted to go back to bed to get away from the events of the day that were yet to come.  I got up and closed the window.  I got dressed in light jeans, sneakers, a red v neck t shirt, and a light black jacket.  I wore my hair down curly.  I looked at my refection looking back at me.  I smiled at the thought of when people say I looked so much like my father and acted like my mother.  I know its been a while but i miss them so much and i wish they were here.  I snapped out of it and quickly grabbed my bag and headed down stairs.

     But before I left I called Justin again.  Even though I knew he wouldnt answer and i really didn't want to talk to him, I called him everyday, but as i said, he never answered or called me back.  I dont even think he really cared at this point.  I dont know whats gotten in to him, we were always so close, with or without our parents.  We were those two annoying best friends who would be too loud in a movie theatre talking about how weird the people in front of us were.  When our parents died though he did become more protective of me, i guess he felt responsible, but his attitude didnt change.  Ever since we moved here, hes changed, like a different person who doesnt even care anymore.  But then again I havent heard from him since he was drunk that night.  I started to get really really worried about him.  I hope he was ok, and still-  No, I couldn't say it, I didn't want to think about the possibilities of where he was or what happened to him.  I was going to try to do a spell to see where he was and then go to find him.  With everything that happened i wanted to make sure he was in one piece. 

     All i heard was the phone ringing and then his voicemail.  I didnt even leave a message.  I just hung up the phone and walked outside to head to school.  I didn't want to go to school today but whatever, I was forcing myself to go.  When I walked outside I saw Stefan at Elenas door waiting for her to answer it.  When he saw me he smiled and then waved, and I smiled and waved back too.  I quickly turned my head back around and walked off my porch.  I really ididnt want to talk to him.  But i knew it was coming.

     It's been four days since I last saw Damon, or talked to him.  I think he was mad at me and I didn't want to really hang out with him, I was just starting to forget about him.  Ok... not really, I thought about him everynight. I couldn't get him out of my head.  His voice, his eyes, his smile, his touch.  I missed him a lot and couldn't get him off my mind at all.  But besides being sad about not seeing Damon, I only saw Elena and Stefan because of school, we had three classes together.  They never really said anything to me though.  Were they mad at me or somthing too?  I dont know what was wrong but they were kinda avoiding me, it was obvious and I didn't like it.  If they wanted to say somthing to me they should say it to my face.

     But i was so happy when i found out Chrissys in all my classes except for gym, which didnt really matter, she'd probably make fun of how scared I am at the balls.  But she hasn't even been in school because of her moms death.  I feel really bad.  It's been really hard for her.  I went to her house two days ago to talk to her and when she saw me she burst into tears, which made me do the same, and hugged me.  She knew that i went through the same thing, even worse than what she went through, but she was still sad of course.  She said she was glad I was ok though and thanks for saving her and stuff.  But if I killed the man about two seconds earlier I could've saved her mom too.  I felt so bad and I felt like it was all my fault, not it was my fault.  She had the funeral yestarday.  I went and a lot of people were there.  Stefan, Damon, and Elena were there too but they didn't stay long.  They kinda stayed in the back of the room avoiding everyone.  And they didn't even say hello to me either.