I Want To Love You - The Vampire Diaries

Chapter 19

Chap 19

***Selenas POV***

Well yestarday went horrible.  I feel like everyone is against me now, including Damon.  But no one knows what I'm going through.  I laid in bed staring at the ceiling.  It was 7, school started at 8.  I decided to get up and get ready to go.  I figured that if I went it would help get my mind off some things.  I had a feeling that it wasn't going to work though.

I put on a blue longsleeve shirt, black converse, and dark blue jeans.  I grabbed my bag and headed outside.  I think Stefan and Elena left already.  Usually they would take me but I guess they didn't want to be bothered with me.  Who really did?  I decided to go see if Chrissy was going to school, if she wasn't then I wasn't. 

When I got to her house I knocked on the door and she came right out all ready to leave.  I guess we were going to school.

"By dad!" she yelled turning around and then shutting the door behind her.  Then she looked at me not really knowing what to say. "So um how is everything?" we started walking as we started our sort of awkward conversation.

"Fine." I lied, "How about you?"

She sighed, "Better I guess."

We were silent for a while.  I wondered if I should tell her that i was planning to kill klaus.  I didn't want to keep things from her.  We were now at school and I was just going to tell her but then I saw Stefan and Elena with some girl with blond hair.  They were smiling walking towards us. 

"Hey guys what's up?" Elena asked all smiley like nothing ever happened.

Chrissy glanced at me and i kept my eyes on the floor.  She answered, "Oh ya know." she said in an obvious tone shrugging, they didn't catch on.  "Never mind."

"Oh ok, well this is Caroline," Elena said pointing to the blonde and she smiled, "And Caroline this is Selena and Chrissy." we just smiled back.

"We were thinking," Stefan said looking at Elena then back at us. "That we would all hang out tonight, you know, watch a movie or somthing."

I spoke right away still not looking at any of them, "Sorry I'm busy." and I walked away and I felt Chrissy right behind me. 

If they thought that we could hang out and everything would be ok, well they were completely and totally wrong. 

Chrissy grabbed my arm and made me stop and look at her.  "What the hell is going on?" she asked with a little laugh.

"I'll tell you after school." I told her and we just walked off to class. 

After school Chrissy told me she had to work and that she'd talk to me later.  I just told her ok.  I didn't want to sound mad but I needed her now and I felt like she was pushing me away.  I had no one to talk to.

After school I headed home and I saw Jeremy walking inside.  He looled at me and smiled and i smiled back.

"Hey Jeremy," i said waving to him.

He waved back, "Hey uh, do you wanna come in?" he gestured to his house.

I thought for a moment and sighed, "Sure."

We went inside and he got two cups of soda and handed me one.  He then sat nonchalantly on his couch and i walked over sitting beside him.  I looked at the cup and took a sip.  Suddenly all my emotions just wanted to come out.  I started to feel sad and wanted to see Damon.  I felt Jeremys eyes on me.

"You ok?" he asked concerned. 

I looked up at him and sighed, "You ever feel like no one understamds you?" i asked curiously.