the outcasts (lore)

chapter 20: viva la vida

severa.

"by now, you are reading this letter because mommy is gone and you've grown up. i am sorry for mommy's sudden death. i don't know in what way i'll die but i know my time is running out. i left you with your uncle sirius, he might be cranky sometimes but he has someone who balances out his crankiness. i apologize for leaving you too early, but i want to search for more about your condition. but while searching i came across your uncle regulus. i thought that maybe he's doing some dark force magic, but i was wrong. he told me to leave him alone and not to mention this interaction with anyone. as i was getting curious, i saw some death eaters talking about a mole within their group.

i figured it was your uncle, since he's been carrying some map and looking suspicious. i told him that he probably needs someone to help him especially now that he's being trackdown. he disagreed. he said he doesn't want to harm someone anymore for his own sake. i know why he said that since he's the reason why cerisse is gone. she was sacrificed for him able to join the other side. cerisse loved him with all her heart so she made a sacrifice but it is not what he want me to do right now. i said different otherwise.

i am sorry. i know it'll be lonely all your life without me or without your dad but i need to do this. it's for your sake, and for the sake of the future generations. even if this is little of help.

i am sorry i chose your uncle. i don't want him
to go through it alone. because i know he's been lonely all his life at their house. it's sad to die but it is more than sad to die alone. he's one of my beloved family and i cherish him like how his older brother cherishes him. i am sorry, my severa. mommy left you too soon. but i know we'll meet again. i will wait for that moment, and i will cherish every running hour of it with you. if mommy is given a chance, i hope i'd be reborn as someone dear to you. so that i can keep you close in my next lifetime.

i'll spend all my lifetimes looking for you, no matter what form you take. mommy will always look for my little severa. i hope you'll forgive me. i love you so much. i know your father does too. i know deep down that man cares for you.

so long. i hope that knobhead doesn't exist in your time. if he still did, i'll wake up in my grave. just kidding.

much love from your mother, carina sagitta black-rosier"

i smiled because of the last lines. maximillian is by my side hugging my side. it also has a moving picture of her holding me, with professor snape. she elbowed professor snape and he forcefully smiled. at the exact moment i'm also smiling, my mother had a big reaction. it also had a picture of my and my mother alone and my uncle reggie holding me as well.

i looked at max and he stared at me.

"let's go back... the others might be looking for us." i said and i kept the letter inside my bag. we went back to the great hall and speak nothing of what we did at the bound.

after the funeral we went back to our houses, it was a bittersweet memory. knowing the truth about my mother, at the same time grieving about dumbledore.

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it's been a month since dumbledore's death. today marks the union of my father and tonks. only known people to them are here including me and my husband. i walked my dad on the aisle and i pat his shoulder and went to my seat with my husband.