A Special Appearance

Chapter 67

"Egotistical?" Lynn asks. "You are calling me...egotistical?" Jenna nods, looking mad but her expression is just mostly neutral, but her eyes. Her eyes are full with anger. "Yes I am! You are not at all willing to give up anything? You don't think that living here, in this big ass house, my house, is good enough?" Jenna yells. It scares Lynn, seeing Jenna mad like this again, the last time was on new year's eve. "Jenna..." Lynn says, she wants to counter Jenna, but she also doesn't want to argue with her. "What? What do you have to say!?" Jenna yells. Lynn blanks out, does she really want to do this, like this? So she stands up. "I'm going to take a walk, think." She says. "You're just going to leave?" Jenna says. "I'll come back, I just need to think, calm down. I think you should do the same." Lynn says, walking away to the hallway to put on her shoes. She just leaves Jenna speechless, stepping out the door. She knows it's wrong and she shouldn't just leave like this. But she can't argue like this, not when they're both angry, when they're both defensive.

Lynn just starts walking, down the road, around a corner, down that road. Just going, millions of thoughts crossing her mind. Her emotions are just...they're fucking annoying. Like she's mad, but she is also sad, she is conflicted. Like yeah she wants to live her, god is this one awesome house, near Los Angeles. Better weather than at home, way more things to do. And to give that up for her apartment with crappy stuff back at home seem so unreasonable. But why can't Jenna understand that I can't just leave school, work maybe. And then her mom, she misses her so much right now. She can't go without being able to talk to her face to face like she normally does when something's wrong. Yes, she can call her. She really wants to right now, but she also doesn't want to bother her mom with this, this is between Jenna and her.

Lynn just keeps walking and thinking, eventually going on a dirt path leading up a hill. Thinking about all the pros and cons of both places. The house itself, that is a clear win on Jenna's side, big mansion, expensive stuff and just a way better location. Then school, Jenna is just working so she doesn't have anything on that part, but Lynn herself does. She really wants to finish her course so she at least could get a good job if necessary. And about a job, she doesn't really know. Yeah Lynn would like to keep her job, but then again it's not too bad to quit. And she doesn't really know about Jenna's work. Where she has to go and how it all works. If Jenna has to be here, in LA. She will get that point. Then lastly family. "I have my mom, Jenna has, well family. I actually don't know too much about the rest of her family. Just that they didn't do anything to help her. So I guess I get that point too." Lynn says to herself, reaching the top of a hill and sitting down on a fallen over log. She checks her phone, a message. "You ok?" from Jenna. It's so minimalistic. But it's also so sweet. She ignored her anger enough to check up on Lynn. Lynn reacts with a quick: "Yeah" She is also still mad but doesn't want Jenna to worry.

Lynn takes a deep breath, finally getting a little calm. She stands up from the log and looks around her. There's not much and yet it's all so beautiful, just trees and bushes. Lynn then walks back down the path she came. Through the streets she passed through on her walk. Finally getting somewhere with her mind. She hasn't decided fully yet but it's at least better than when she left. "God I left. I just left Jenna there, maybe she was right. I was being egotistical." Lynn whispers to herself. Lynn's heart starts filling up with regret and pain. "I fucking left here right there without talking, I may be calmer but I didn't even think about how she was feeling. I feel fucking terrible." Lynn says. Tears forming in her eyes as she thinks about all the pain Jenna could be going through, all the pain she could've prevented by just staying there. Talking with her girlfriend.

Lynn eventually ends up back at Jenna's neighborhood. Standing in front of the fence, the very fence they stood before a few days ago when Lynn first came here. She enters the code and the fence opens up for her. Her mind is racing with all the things she should say, all the apologies she should give. Every single scenario Lynn can think of crosses her mind as she sees Jenna's house. Yelling, cursing, crying, being send out or not even having the door opened on her.

Lynn looks at the big house as she walks up to Jenna's place. She is scared, so got damn scared. But she has to do something. "Let's do this." Lynn thinks, ringing the bell. She waits a few seconds before the door opens. She is met by Jenna, her eyes still full of tears but with a small smile on her face. "I missed you." She whispers, her voice cracking. Lynn can't, she just can't. She can't be mad at her and she can't be upset with her in the slightest, she is just too amazing. Lynn pulls Jenna into a big hug, tears rolling down her face and holding her girlfriend closely. Jenna immediately wraps her arms around Lynn as well, the two of them just stand there. Holding each other and crying. "I'm sorry Jenna." Lynn says. "That's alright." "No it isn't, you were right. I was being egotistical and I just left you here." "You can tell me in a while. But have you thought about it?" "I have yeah." Lynn says letting go of Jenna. She wasn't sure, not until she looked into Jenna's big friendly eyes. "I don't care where we are, I don't care where we live. We'll figure it out. Because no matter where or when, I will always love you more than I ever thought I could love." Lynn says. Her heart being put at ease. She just wants to be with Jenna, if that means she'll have to give up a few things and stay here. So be it.