Dontrell's POV:
It's getting harder to breathe
Chainsmoking your love
Can't be good for my sanity
Can't be good for my lungs
Chainsmoking your love
Chainsmoking your love
I know my lease is up and the bailiffs at the door
And still I'm hanging on to the life we had before.
I know this cold won't lead me to the Lord
Although I'm black and blue I'm begging you for more.
I sing along to the song letting the lyrics wash over me.
I can't say the betrayal was unexpected but man does it hurt, a week later and I'm still crying over his dusty ass.
I groan cutting the music off.
I blocked him but he keeps blowing my phone up from different numbers, I might have to change my number if he doesn't stop.
My bedroom door opens and Tisha enters.
"You good." She asked laying down next to me.
Tisha pretty much moved in to my second bedroom this past week and I'm thankful for that, I really don't need to be alone right now.
"Mhmm, I just can't believe it's really over this time around, I was a fool for so long."
"Good dick will do that to you." She she said bumping our shoulders.
She's right I'm a victim of good dick, this boy had me out here acting a fool and believing everything he said.
I groan in to my pillow.
"That good?" She asked.
"You have no idea, it wasn't just the dick friendship but he does this thing with his tongue....." I cut myself off I can't be thinking about that.
It's fuck him right now.
"I don't need to all that." She said with a giggle, " but for real though I never asked when did you start liking dick."
I can't really say I like men, I've only been with one.
I shrugged, " I don't know if I like men like that because I've only ever been with one dude but I know I loved the sex, I'm just not sure I would ever let another man in like that."
" We need to get you out there, get you back in to the dating pool, I know you still like girls and my friend Tiffany is available." She said wiggling her eyebrows.
Fuck no Tiffany is a walking STD.
"I'm not a clinic."
"Fuck you, she's not that bad." She said laughing because she knows I'm right.
"But seriously you need to put yourself out there and experiment a little to see what you really like."
"Maybe but the most pressing thing right now is me getting a job, with Lamar out of the picture I need to start paying my own bills."
I should have never accepted his offer to pay my bills that was just another way for him to have control over me.
"I would move in to help you out but I can't break my lease."
