Lamar's POV:
A week later:
I fucked up it's been a week and I'm still blocked, I drove past his apartment building twice this week and both times he wasn't on those steps with his friends.
The pain in his eyes and voice broke my heart, when we started fucking it was more of a power play thing for me, I wanted him to know his place the beating wasn't enough, I wanted to dominate him and I knew sex would do that I just didn't think he would fall in love, hell I know I love him too but I just don't love him enough to choose him.
"You good?" Jay asked putting the game controller down.
"Mhmm." I hummed.
"I saw Trell last night at Joshua's kick back." Jay said, Jason is the only person in my circle of friends that knows about Trell and me.
I look up at him, " was he alone?" I asked, I missed the kick back because I had to do something for my father.
"Nah, he was with those two goofy friends of his." He said.
"Did he leave alone?"
Jason laughs at that shaking his head.
"Nigga I wasn't watching him, I saw him in passing." He said with a chuckle, " and that's not your nigga anymore, he can do whatever he wants." He said.
Not mine, there will never be a day where Trell is not mine, he'll get over this little tantrum of his eventually.
"You know that's still me." I said waving him off.
"Delusion is a disease, I don't like Trell but he's right you can't keep leading him on."
I fight the urge to roll my eyes, I'm not delusional about Trell, he knew from the get go he was going to a side nigga and I made that clear when I didn't end my relationship with Destiny but he chose to ignore that and hurt his own feelings by stalking her social media knowing full well I'm all over her pages.
"It's not delusion he needs me more than I need him." I said.
Jason rolled his eyes at that, "he can get the next nigga or bitch to pay his bills and give him money and if he doesn't do that he can always get a job."
I don't see him getting anyone to pay his bills knowing how hard it was to convince him to let me pay for them in the first place but I can definitely see him going back to work.
"And you only paid his bills so he could focus on school, Trell was never on that gold digger shit."
This conversation is not going anywhere, I need a solution a way to please him without giving up Destiny I might be cheating on her but I love her, my family loves her. I can't just end my relationship over some great sex and a nigga I can't take home.
My father would flip out if he knew I was cheating on Destiny and with a nigga at that, Destiny's father is my father's right hand man.
Destiny and I were destined to be together, my father is currently training me to take over the whole business and he's made it clear that Destiny will be by my side as my wife when I take over a year from now.
"I need to talk to him but he blocked me." I said getting out of my head.
"You know where he lives."
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Later that day:
"Dontrell baby open the door." I've been banging on his door for the past twenty minutes and I know his in there, he ran inside when he saw me pull up.
