MY EVERYTHING ||| Draco Malfoy

Overthink

I bite my nails as i study him, peacefully sleeping as I'm sat straight up next to him. I try to convince myself i can do this. My drunk self thought i could. But while trying to convince myself all my mind is saying is...oh my god. What did i do? How could i do this...i force myself to seated but as Draco shuffles towards me, his sleepy face lying in front of me. I immediately stand up, grabbing anything i can find of mine and chucking it one messy before rushing out.

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Draco's POV

I play around with some fruit on my plate, my jaw clenched at the thought of seeing her any minute. I needed to know what she thought before i reacted. I think I'm still in shock. I cant tell if ive just ruined the relationship with my best friend or done the best thing I've done since i met her. I stab a piece of pancake with my fork at the thought, shoving it in my mouth as someone sits down next to me. Ed sits there, a grin on his face as he looks stupidly giddy. "What did the pancake ever do to you" he raises his eyebrows while pouring coffee. I send his a death glare at his comment, looking towards the door to waiting to see her walk through probably complaining of her awful hungover or awkwardly staying silent. "Someone obviously didn't get laid last night. Im gonna need at least a drink of this to put up with moody Draco" Ed scoffs as he chugs some coffee.

"Happy new year by the way. So much for keeping the tradition alive. Where were you at midnight? Sophia dragged me away from a chick and then didn't even show up in time" he sighs annoyed, piling bacon on his plate. The mention of her name makes my face numb slightly, the thought of what we were really doing at midnight coming into mind. I look down at my plate, debating whether to tell him or if i should let my mind go mad for even longer.

"I slept with Soph" i spit out towards my plate and i hear Ed choke on his food as his hand slaps the table. He stands up, looking at me like im joking. I look up at him annoyed as people look around. He looks around before awkwardly sitting back down, leaning in closer to me. "Draco Malfoy i swear to Merlin himself if your lying-

"Ed i swear even more if you don't shut the fuck up right now-

"Ohhh someone in a bad mooddd" Blaise whines as he sits down, V following him which a grin on her face. I look around her but no Soph in sight, i mentally curse under my breath as Ed looks at them both excitedly. "What?" V asks looking between us both. Ed is practically bursting as he looks from me to them and i roll my eyes, realising they'll find out eventually. "Draco and Sophia slept together!" Ed rushes out and i send him daggers as i look around, everyone either too hungover or deaf to care. V gasps dramatically, her arm flinging over Blaise. "Thats where she was! I thought she hooked up with someone random and was gonna come back to a locked dorm!" Her hand flings over her mouth as she stares at me.

But if she didnt go back to her dorm...where the fuck was she? And why was she there? Did she regret it as much as I'm thinking? Was she so drunk that when she woke up she was absolutely shocked? Did she just need time to think? But the real question that came to mind, which is hated myself for...

Was she going to act like i was any other guy at this school?

I aggressively grab a green apple from the table, anger boiling inside me as i storm off. Feet come rushing after me and Ed slows down as he gets to my side, walking a me pace. "Woah okay i know you're in moody Malfoy mode right now and i am breaking the one rule of Moody Malfoy to not get in your way...but i gotta stop you" he speaks up, finally stepping infront of me his hands bumbling into my chest as i huff angrily. "Ed get the fuck out my way" i speak calmly, my eyes saying my demands more than my words. "Okay but just listen. You know Sophia. She's probably off somewhere completely overthinking this. Trying to get away. If you go to her now it will not end well." He raises his eyebrows as he tries to knock some sense into me.

"What so im just supposed to let her sit and overthink this?! I need to know what she's thinking. I need to know if i was just one of her hook ups." I slow down towards the end, looking around to make sure no one can hear. "Right. I get that. But this is you and Sophia. If you're really worried then i can go speak to her. Okay?" He asks suggestively and i slowely nod, looking to the side. I sigh, my hands running through my hair as i look back at him. "She'll be in the astronomy tower...she'd know i would look at the black lake first because of how much she loves it. So she'd go to the astronomy tower because she would think I'd never check our spot. Because I would think she'd never go to our spot after how badly we fucked up us" i huff out as i explain, a little smile coming to Ed's face as i explain making me star at him until he nods quickly.

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Sophia's POV

The wind breezes in my hair as i keep my eyes closed. How the hell could i mess up the one thing in my life that was always there. Through everything. I cant believe i would do that to him. A floor creaks behind me and my head snaps around in fear, Ed letting out a light smile as he sits next to me with a grin. I breathe in slightly as i look out, leaning against the railing. "You know" i state, my voice breaking slightly. The fear rising of how badly this is going to affect our lives. His shoulders drop slightly as he looks out. "Well you don't have to say that like it's a bad thing" he sighs and i look over to him my eyebrows questionably raised. "I've ruined everything" i scoff as i look down, running my hands through my hair. "You make it sound like it's all your fault?" He asks confused as if look back up at him. I nod lightly "because it is." I look out breathing in the fresh air like it will magically tell me what to do. "I'm the one that sleep with everyone. I'm he one that has treated the best person in the world to me like some guy i met yesterday. I'm the one who freaks out and runs out before he even wakes up. I'm the one who see's something that could truly lead somewhere and run the other direction." My eyes water slightly as i can bare to look over at him. "Draco would never do this to me" i mentally want to break myself at the thought.

Thinking of him waking up confused, the whole morning wondering what I'm thinking. Waiting for my reaction before reacting himself. Because he knows how i feel about this stuff. "Right. Because you don't do relationships" Ed nods, like he's repeated it a thousand times. Everyone knows. The whole school knows. But only one person in the school knows why. Draco.

It stays silent for a bit, Ed looking out to the sky. While my mind runs with thoughts. "You know he's the only person who calls me Soph..." i admire and i Ed turns his head to me with a small smile. i nod lightly "yeah...ive always noticed it. It's so natural for him..." i shrug lightly as i look back out. "Cant believe I've ruined a friendship so natural. So needed." I scoff, so annoyed at myself i couldn't probably jump off the tower right now. "I don't know what I'd do without Draco...probably would have killed myself by now" my lip trembles at the thought of all the times he's been there for me.

"Sophia?" Ed speaks after some silence. I hum in response, not looking at him as i expect him to say something stupid or flirty like usual. "It's Draco...can't he be an exception for your rule?" He narrows his eyes slightly as he stands up straight, i look back at him while he says it, my thoughts trailing off. "I mean it's you and Draco" he scoffs lightly "surely that's better than any rule"

I look down biting my lip as i look down. "My drunk self...really thought i could let that go. For him. But i don't think my sober self is willing to try. I don't think i can give myself a chance to do what I'm so afraid to be." I scrunch my eyebrows lightly, the thought making me upset. Surely Draco was more important than my fear of breaking this rule...