MY EVERYTHING ||| Draco Malfoy

Library

"Why would you choose a potion you haven't studied yet?" Blaise crunches his eyebrows with a light scoff. I roll my eyes and lie with my back against the side of the sofa, not facing the door. "I didnt. Draco chose it and gave me his notes when Snape was picking on me. Now Snape is expecting me to write this stupid essay" i let out an aggravated sigh, closing my eyes lightly until V shoots up from her position on Blaise's lap. I look at her weirdly until she says what i never thought of. "This is the perfect way to be friends with Draco again! Ask him to help!" She asks excitedly as she looks between the two of us. My face drops slightly and Blaise shakes his head.

"Nah he's been in his own world." He speaks up, expecting us to know what he means. "What?" I ask lightly looking at him stupidly. He lets out a sigh as he explains. "You know? Like thinking all the time. Im surprised he isnt taking day dreaming potions, he's already chugging dreamless potions." He scoffs and me and V look at him slightly surprised. V quickly walks his arm and he looks up, a small 'ow' escaping his lips. "How couldn't you tell me? You tell me everything" she crosses her eyes, while he looks up at her in slight disbelief. He looks at me, the worry still obvious on my face when he looks at me for reassurance making him sigh. "I didnt think it was a big deal. He just said he needed time to get over you" he shrugs

"To get over me? What does that even mean?" I scrunch my eyebrows and look towards V, who is still annoyed and flops onto another sofa. "Not like that. But he just misses you. Being near you without thinking about it" Blaise replies as if he's repeating his words.

"Are you serious? He misses me? Im right here! If anyone should be missing anyone it should be-

My voice fades as they both look behind me, mentally killing myself as i realise he must be there. I slowly turn around, him standing there just looking into my eyes. I get lost in them for a moment, like we're reading each other or maybe there's some sort of spell intertwining them. Other people around the common room go quiet or murmur, probably hearing about it by now. Blaise and V must of been pained by the silence because V almost yells out. "S needs help with her potions! Something about the notes you gave her?"

He doesn't look away as she speaks, just slowly nods his head as his eyes stay glues on mine. I almost feel my eyes watering at the unspoken words being shared between us. He feels so close but never been so far. I gulp lightly as he opens his mouth to reply. "I could help...in the library, tomorrow after school?" I bit my lip lightly, remembering i planned to help harry before the tournament the next day but i ignore it. Because of the way he's looking at me. Like he misses me but has to stay away. Like he wants to run up and kiss me but there's a wall between us. Like I'm something he is so desperate to have but I'm stopping him...

Blaise clears his throat and i realise that i haven't replied. "Right yeah that would be great" i smile lightly as i gaze at him still, not wanting it to end but also wanting him to be next to me instead. But then something shifts in his eyes, like he's speaking to himself until he looks to the floor. "I should uhm-" before he could finish he walks towards the dorm stairs and disappears while the whispers start around the room.

"Do you think Diamond turned him down-

"I reckon Malfoy fell in love and Diamond has broken his heart-

"It is so obvious how in love Malfoy is. Everyone knows it except her-

"Diamond is nothing but a heart breaker, even to the person who's been at her side through everything-

The last one hit. I snapped my head around but before i could see they went silent and V stood on the sofa. "If you all dont shut the fuck up and mind you own business your next words will be in the hospital wing!!" She yells to all of them, but my body distances as they all look at me, normally im used to a couple looks but after the whispers ive heard its felt like there all thinking im ruining Draco...a heartbreaker to my bestfriend. And i already have those thoughts let alone everyone else's. And so it gets too much and i rush off, out of the common room and out of the dungeons. Away from the snaky beaded eyes eyeing my next move. My next heart break. My next scandal.

...

I tap the desk lightly, my knee bumping up and down as i anxiously wait for him. My eyes trained on the blank piece of paper infront of me and a potions book beside it. I breathe in lightly as a chair pulls out next to me. My lip automatically goes between my teeth as i look beside me, he looks tired. I send him a light smile as looks at the paper. "The start is always the worst bit of an essay" he speaks up as he slides the paper towards him, looking at me as he reaches for my quill. I nod lightly, mesmerised by his normal tone.

"Soph?" He speaks up and i jump lightly, seeing his hand stuck out for my quill. "Sorry" i mumble as i hand it to him. He sends me a light smile and i force my eyes to look ahead, at the magical bookshelf of...books? We're in the potions section and a plight pink Amortentia book catches my eye. But i immediately turn my head when i feel Draco's eyes on me. His face is full of thoughts, and as V instructed me. Just ask questions if it gets awkward. I clear my throat lightly as i look towards the paper.

"So...why did you choose Amortentia?" I look up at him, he doesn't look sad as he looks at me. But not happy. Like he's happy to be with me but not happy to be in this situation with me. And i know that because it's exactly how i feel. When i smell his minty, expensive scent. His styled hair. His long, pale fingers decorated with rings. I just want to be as close as we were. And what if we never are. I get caught out my trance when he speaks up.

"It was the first one that came to mind." He says thoughtfully, as he looks to the floor. I nod slightly as it goes more silent, realising Vs advice was stupid because asking a question after i just did was even more awkward. And so i just watch him, his reaction as he stares at the floor. Tired but in thought. Like he's been thinking all day. And when i look at his droopy face, dark circles, messy hair, and glossy eyes it makes my face drop even more. I really thought we could just get over it. He seemed so ok the other day...i guess it didn't hit how different we'd feel after that night.

"I miss you" i state without even processing what i said, my eyes going slightly wide. His head snaps up to me in slight shock but he doesn't reply. Kinda just stares, waiting for my next move. So i roll my eyes at his reaction and look away, wanting to drown myself in the black lake for even carrying on with the statement. "We haven't spent day away from each other for years. Even when we're fighting i still see you at meals and in our common room...you just feel so distant." I shrug lightly as my eyes sting slightly at the thought. I turn my head to him, an expression I've never seen before. Sad, confused, shocked, all in one. I sniff lightly as i look into his dull, tired eyes.

"Your making me miss moody Draco" i laugh lightly as i get a small smile out of him, even if he looks down to hide it. "I miss you too" and even with such a vulnerable statement he makes it sound so stubborn and stuck up that i barely believe him, but it brings a smile to my face. Because that's Draco. Thats my best friend. Or it used to be.

Even if I'm not willing to lose him.

"You really cant look at me without-

"Soph"

His interruption comes out in a sigh as he looks up, eyes closed for a moment. "Please don't make this harder" he mutters as he scans my eyes. I breathe in, with only one thing registering in my brain.

Im not ready to give up what i have with Draco...

"Why cant we just have what we've always had? No labels..." i breathe out lightly at the proposition. Draco looks quite taken back by the question. Obviously not expecting the sudden compromise.

"What do you mean no labels?" His eyebrows scrunch together as he almost whispers it, his eyes deep in mine. And just as i open my mouth to speak, hesitantly stopping.

"Miss Diamond. Nice to see you've been working on your potions essay. I need to speak with you." My gaze moves from Draco to behind him, Snape muttering in his monotone voice as he does. I gulp lightly as i look between him and Draco. Draco looks slightly confused, and left wondering as he looks back to me. "Uhm...of course Professor..." i mumble as i look at Draco, directing it to Snape.

"Follow me" he swishes his cape as he turns storming off, giving me little to no time to catch up. I grab my books and start to rush off

"I'll talk to you later? I'll go back to the common room" i state as i quickly scuttle, leaving Draco speechless in the middle of the library.