MY EVERYTHING ||| Draco Malfoy

My Draco

Oxygen feels miles away from my lungs, the halls deadly silence making it ten times worse. Everyone was shocked by his words. Even me. I can't believe he said that. I can't believe he's told the whole school that. I can't believe he could do that to me. He even looks shocked, as if stare at Nott lying on the floor. Draco pants above him, looking at me with regret as he waits for my reactions. But i dont even think. People start to whisper, McGonagoll and Dumbledore are just behind Draco but so taken back that they are staring at me. Everyone's waiting for me. But instead of even thinking rationally my feet start to move. They hurtle to the doors at a pace, fleeing from the whispers. Overhearing one last whisper before i leave.

"Do you think she promised Malfoy not to say?"

The hallways practically swirl as i trod down them, not even looking back when i hear a name being called. I just run. Going to the only place I've really appreciated noise. Knowing i will not be getting a lot of pleasant sounds and talks after this.

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I shiver as the wind passes, not prepared to be sitting by the lake in a just my shirt and slytherin jumper. I breath in lightly, knowing ill have to go back soon but wanting to escape forever. What I've always wanted to do really...escape. But i stay grounded as the presentable Sophia Diamond. But only because Draco always did. He kept me grounded. Gave me hopes that one day i could tolerate it like he does.

A twig snaps in the distance and my head snaps behind me, Blaise stood there with a half smile on his face comes into my vision. I look back to the lake, closing my eyes as i wait for his conversation. He sighs lightly when he sits down, looking out for a moment before speaking. "Thought I'd come see how you were..." he gets to the point. Thats Blaise. No small talk he likes to speak properly.

I look down to my lap, leaning on my hands behind me as i breathe out lightly. I open my mouth to speak but hesitate before asking. "Whats going on up there..." i ask, avoiding looking up to avoid the uneasy look he could give. "Think it's best you don't know." He clears his throat quietly looking over at me before back out. I look up to the sky with a suck in of my breath.

"Is he in trouble" my voice breaks as i speak, the thought that i care about Draco while being so angry and betrayed. It's silent. He's probably debating if he should tell me the truth.

"He's been in the office since trying to run after you. He told me where you would be before he left. He was worried..." He states it like it made everything better. But i scoff lightly pulling my legs up to my chest and wrapping them in a hug.

"My parent...my family name. Thats why i couldn't tell anyone..." i look to Blaise, who i knew wouldnt understand the situation but i wasn't't saying so he would understand.

"The first thought that came into my mind after it all was about them. About how they would victim blame me. Make it seem like my fault. Like Theodore Nott could just grab me and use me and i would smile because im a diamond. And i shouldn't cause chaos. When i screamed in their faces that i was raped on Christmas? They slapped me. Told me i was spoiled. Im surprised they didn't just ask why i was telling them." I sniff as the thought comes back. How little they cared. I scoff "I'd be called a 'disgrace' if they knew what's happening today. Which they will. The teachers cant hear that and not do anything. And I'll be the one punished."

I nod lightly, my head bustling into my knees as i look to the lake. "Out of everyone, i thought Draco would understand that the most." I mumble weakly and i can feel Blaise's pity eyes on me so i force myself not to look at him.

It's been silent. Until he speaks up. Hesitantly because he knows i wont want to hear it. "He does understand. But he cares too much. Malfoy has the worst anger issues I've seen. And when a guy is saying that about you? To the whole school? You're lucking he didn't beat the guy to death. Because he cares about you way too much." Blaise shrugs and i look over to him before standing, not saying a word.

"Sophia?" He calls as i start to walk. "I can't- i can't talk about him right now."

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I keep my head down as i walk into the common room, the room goes silent straight away. I feel eyes glued on me as i quickly walk to the dorm stairs. As i stomping up the stairs a name is called behind me. My eyes squeeze shut as i almost get away with it. As i turn, Pansy's light smile comes into view. She always pissed Draco off. Absolutely desperate to shag him all the time. Especially after she lost his virginity to him. But she'd always be ok with me. Never really bothered each other because we didn't need to.

"Uhm...i know this isnt what you wanna hear right now but Dumbledore and Snape are looking for you. Draco wouldn't tell them where you were but im assuming sooner or later you'll have to talk to them...just thought I'd prepare you." She sends me a sympathy smile and i nod lightly. "Thanks pansy..." i mumble before tapping up the stairs.

All i want to do is sleep. Sleep and escape from this school. From the people and the magic. From my name and business. I want to escape from my life. Go to sleep and not wake up technically. I huff as i flop on my bed, snuggling into blankets as his words echo in my head like they did in the hall. Me and Draco were finally ok again. I mean were weren't completely ourselves because it was... different. But we were ok. I dont want to still be fighting with him. I can't still be fighting with him. I just don't have the energy to not have my Draco.