Beyond the Shadows || LADS Sylus FanFiction

28.

You

I don't get far before Sylus appears in front of me.

»Where do you think you're going?«

»As far away from you as possible!«, I shout at him.

He sighs heavily and runs his hand over his face.

»Look, I'm sorry, Sweetie. I shouldn't have done this. Not like that. I didn't want to hurt-«

»But you did!«

The tears now fall from my eyes and I can't stop it anymore.
I cry out of anger and disapointment in him and myself.
Because I thought he wouldn't do anything that could hurt me.

But he lied...

»I know. I'm sorry...I...Please...«

His voice is low and his hand reaches for mine, but I pull away.

»Don't touch me again!«

I sound as desperate as I am, his facial expression suddenly looks hurt.

»You're afraid of me.«, he states.

»Obviously I am, bastard. But that's nothing new for you, is it? Everyone around you is afraid of you, but it's not enough for you! You want more and more and more power! My aethercore, the aethercore from this damn auction...Tell me, does it turn you on when people fear you? Is that some kind of weird kink or what? It's disgusting, Sylus! You're disgusting!«

With my last sentence he flinches and takes one step back.

»I understand.«

»Do you?«

For endless moments we just stand there in the hallway and stare at each other.

He hurt me.

Physically and, to my embarressement, mentally, too.

But apperently, I just hurt him, too.

And I didn't know that was even possible.

But those red eyes tell me another story...

»If you really want to leave me, I will tell Luke and Kieran to get you out of N109 zone and back home safe.«

He said leave me...not just leave...

There are two sides of me.

Two voices screaming at me.

The one that says I should run as fast as I can, call a cab or something, get back home and never come back here...

But the other...

For god's sake, it yells at me that this is wrong. That I belong right here...

That I belong to him...

But how could I?

He's dangerous and he proved it just moments ago.

He wants to use me to become even more intimidating than he already is.

»I hate you...«, I whisper while another tear runs over my face.

He nods slowly and looks down to the floor.

»I guess that's a yes to the offer.«

I don't answer.

I can't.

I'm shaking and don't know what to do now.

I'm a fucking mess.

Suddenly, the crow appears with a loud screech and lands on my shoulder.
Sylus looks up again and frowns at it.
My head turns to Mephisto.

»What's going on?«

»I...don't know...«

Sylus seems to be as surprised as I am.

Mephisto turns to Sylus, still sitting on my shoulder, and screams at him. It litterally sounds like he's giving him a lecture.

»I can't believe you're doing this, crazy bird.«

Is Mephisto really talking to him?!

»Stop this...sto...stop it already!«

I'm really not sure what I'm witnessing here...

And then, after Mephisto seems to be done with his outburst, he strokes it's head against my cheek and...

Purrs?!