So close But So far Away

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CAPRIS POV

I woke up to Kaylee shuffling on top on me. I quietly groaned and grabbed my phone to check the time 5:59. I put my phone down and was about to go back to sleep, but that was quickly halted when Kaylees phone started ringing.

"Leelee." I whispered and shook her, she only groaned. I rolled my eyes, this isn't an easy game waking Kaylee up from her sleep. It's either really hard to wake her up or if you do wake her up she'll be really pissed off and want to hit anything near her. She's just grumpy when she wakes up.

"Leelee wake up." I shook her harder, this time her head quickly shot up, "The fuck are you waking me up for." Her words were so aggressive but her voice made it sound like she was walking on cloud with a unicorn prancing behind her.

"Your phone." She groaned and  answered the phone "What kourtney?" after a few moments of silence kaylee said , "Okay pick me up at." She looked at the time "7:00." they're a few more seconds of silence til Kaylee cut the call and put her phone down.

She got up off of me and stood to her feet but quickly sat back down, "Fuck." She whispered. I chuckled, "What happened?" She groaned, "You happened and now my legs feel like jello." I laughed again, "Well maybe you wouldn't have to leave bed if you stay with me." I tried my best to convince her.

"No nice try I haven't hung out with Kourtney 1on1 since my birthday." She said standing to her feet. I just rolled my eyes, "I'm going in the shower." She gathered what she needed and headed to the bathroom.

I signed and remembered about changing the sheets. So that's what I did. After I changed the sheets I laid on her bed waiting for her to get out of the shower.

I heard the shower turn off and soon enough Kaylee walked into the room with her towel around her body.

"What are you doing after you leave here?" She asked while drying off. "I'm not sure probably go home and sleep." I responded.

Kaylee dropped her towel and started getting dressed in front of me, I quickly closed my eyes. I heard her laugh "We just had sex and we showered together you don't have to close your eyes." I hesitated but I opened my eyes. My eyes scanned her perfect body.

I reached out to her and pulled her between my legs. "My Love you're so beautiful." I said admiringly.

Kaylees face was quickly coated in blush. "Thank you." She hooked her fingers under my chin and brought her lips down to mine. What was supposed to be one kiss turned out to be a soft make out.

Our lips connected like they were meant for eachother and pulled away like they hated being away from each other. Even if it was just for a second. The kisses were shouting one word at me.

Love.

Love? we just started dating not even a month ago? Love is a scary thing for me... I've only ever 'Loved' 1 person and it took me about a year to Love her. I wasn't even IN love with her. But Kaylee makes that feel different. The Love I experienced was toxic, and after the 'Love' ended I started turning to other people for pleasure and validation . Imagine if me and kaylee ever break up? How badly would I spiral?

I won't just be losing my Lover, but also my best friend.

I Can't Love her... If I fuck up i'll lose my best friend... I Do Not Love Her.

Kaylee pulled back and looked at me worried. I looked at her "What?" She analyzed my face, "You stopped kissing me and you're crying." I wiped my face and I indeed was crying.

Was I in my thoughts that much? Kaylee"Baby what's wrong?" she asked as she sat on the bed.

If I told her why I was crying the topic I want to avoid has to be spoken about... So I did what I knew best.

I sucked back my tears, "Nothing is wrong. I need to get home." Kaylee looked at me and tilted her head.

"No talk to me Capri do not walk away from me." I heard her sternly say. I ignored her and walked to her bedroom door. "Capri please." She got up and pulled my arm. "What did I do? Did I make you uncomfortable? please talk to me. I'm sorry." Hearing her plead pained me.

"Kaylee, let me go i need to go home." I forced out. The sound of her full name made her let go. "Capri you walk out this house we are no longer together." She said seriously but you could hear how shaky her breath was.

"Well I guess that's how it has to be." A tear slid down my cheek and before Kaylee spoke I was out her room.

I took a deep breath and after walking out her door. I heard her sobs from inside her room. It took everything in me not to go back in there and hold her.

Before I knew it I was in my car. But I didn't go home... I couldn't go home in my room, Lay in my bed which I took her Virginity in, where all the gifts she gave me in there when she asked me to be her girlfriend, where I held her because her 'aunt' and 'uncle'

I parked in front of the house in tears. I fucked up... And I mean bad.

I got out the car and rang the door bell. When the door finally opened I bursted out into tears.

"Capri what the fuck happened?" Kevin asked me as he closed and locked the door. "I broke up with her Kev... She's never going to forgive me... I don't deserve her at all." Kevin just held me in his arms and helped me to him room.

"I'm going to get you some water and by the time I come back I need answers... And I mean today." He walked out his room.

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A/N

Please tell me why I'm crying and i'm writing this book? like hello...

Anyway I know y'all are going to hate me when y'all read this or whenever I release this chapter.

I'm sorry i'm sorry, I need the drama of it all.

Don't curse me out yet 😖 let me cookkkkk!!