Choosing My Life - Bear And Rachel

Realisation

Bear
Thankyou, she said Thankyou after blowing my mind. I kissed her head as it buried into my shoulder. This little woman's spirit was amazing. I fully expected to only sleep tonight. Just to have her in my arms again. But she gave me so much more. Even after I scared her with the kisses. I'd forgotten the bite marks she had over her body when she first got to hospital. The memory only now making me hold her tighter.

She groaned sleepily, and my cock fell from between her legs. I winced. I might have to talk to her about the plan b. Just in case she didn't want kids yet. She had to know she always had choices. I wiggled myself out from under her and went to the bathroom where I wet a cloth with warm water to help her clean up.

She had propped herself up when I came back.
"Where did you go?" She asked.
"To get you a warm cloth to clean up. I'm told it feels good." I replied
She frowned, and then blushed as I wiped her, then kissed her mound, finally taking the underwear off.

I crawled back into bed with her and pulled the blankets over us.
"Come here Sweet pea. We should sleep."
She smiled and wiggled into my arms again.
"Thankyou," I kissed her head, and sighed. I was happy.

Marilyn

I sat at the bar swirling my drink around the glass. Thinking over the day. Four years I'd waited for Bear to notice me. One day is all she took. My entire wardrobe edged on indiscretion, and she was from a society so prim and proper they couldn't even show their ankles, maybe.
I pulled a face and slammed down the mouthful that was left. It left a nice burn.
"So this is where you ended up."
My lovely brother slid into the seat next to me.
"You could have warned me!"
"About what?"
"About Brian and that... her." I snarled.
"What good would it have done? I've told you time and time again over the years that you were wasting your time." He nodded at the bar tender, and held up two fingers, then turned to me. "You didn't want to listen."
"Four years, I waited for fucking years for him to notice me" I whinged
"How did you wait?"
"What?"
"How did you wait?" Horse said patiently, passing one of the drinks to me. I blinked at him.
"What did you mean?"
"Well, there's something in the club called Midwife waiting, where, when you find your girl, you stop screwing around... and you jump any time she needs you. Midwife waited for four years too. Only, " Horse took a swallow and hissed as the whiskey hit. " only, he kept it in his pants at all times even though he didn't know if she knew he existed."
I watched my baby brother turn on the seat and look out on the dance floor. " The other type is Blaze waiting... and that is not waiting at all."
Horse sighed, and continued.
"You Blaze waited for him... worse of all, you Blaze waited with his brothers. Not sure there's a single brother who hasn't had a taste of you. That's evidence to Bear that you weren't interested. He didn't believe you were interested at all, still doesn't. I kept telling him, and he'd frown, think about how you acted around all the boys, and dismiss the information. Even today, he told Momma that she was wrong. You were never interested in him. If you were, he'd have say down with you and explained that he saw you as just a friend. And he was right."
He tilted his head,
"If you really were interested in him as being yours and yours alone. You wouldn't have wanted any other cock near you."
I frowned at him. He reached over and patted my shoulder.
"You'll find him one day Maz, you'll find the man who will make you want to punch any guy who looks at you, just so he can get to you easier."
"What the fuck do you know about this? You don't bring any girl home. For all I know you're a Virgin." I slurred at him.
He sat up and looked at me sadly.
"I found someone, then found out that she was in love with someone else, someone who proved he was worthy of her. Then found a look alike, found she was just in it for the bikers, as many as she could. At least you have self worth." He stared at me. "But I know what I want. I want what Prez, Midwife, Tinker, all those guys. I want what they've got. And I'll wait for her like Midwife did for Daisy."
He got up and walked away.

I watched him walk to a table of girls being chatted to by some boys. The boys were all paying attention to one or two of the girls. The so called prettier ones. Horse ignored those ones and immediately drew the one who was ignored onto the dance floor. The pretty girls glared at their friend who had lit up.

Bullshit Horse, you're not waiting.
I watched my brother move from table to table, bringing more girls up until he had a group of them laughing around him. This is a free book available through Wattpad (c) LTM1986. If you paid any money for this story, you've been ripped off. It is totally free through Wattpad. He peeled off for a break and came back to me.
"Whooo, so which of the boys managed to keep their girls attention?" He asked.
"The prospect in the corner. He started to bring her out for a spin on the dance floor and she pulled him back" I replied.
The bar tender passed over a beer.
Horse nodded.
"Well he's getting lucky tonight then. These other douchebags aren't learning. Don't look at the girl getting all the attention and lapping it up. She's not interested. Go for the one who won't be distracted from you. That's the one."
He flashed a grin at me as three group of girls he'd collected wandered up to him.
"Miladies," he bowed, "I swear you just want me for my dance moves."
"Definitely, " they chorused. He stood and laid his arn around the closest girl.
"Lead me to the dance floor!"

For some reason, watching my brother entertain the girls bright a smile to my face. Until I realised that's what Bear used to do. Less flamboyant, but he'd take the girls and talk with them while I got chatted up by the boys. And I wanted him because of all the girls around him.

I wanted him because he didn't want me. Fuck, I'd wasted four years of my life chasing someone who didn't want me. I snorted, at least I knew Horse wouldn't be taking any of these girls home. He was Momma's boy. He wouldn't desecrate her house like that.