Blue Moon (gxg)

"Why does it have to be so difficult?" (37)

There is only one place I longed to return.

"We have arrived at the Blue Moon!" Vincent announced to us.
Bella and I looked at each other and couldn't help but smile.

The Blue Moon.
This is the place when everything started, the first kiss she gave me... the first kiss I gave her.
This place will belong to us forever, like an oath.

"I told you we would come back here." I squeezed her hand.
"This place makes me happy and sad at the same time." Bella sighed but made an effort to smile.
I looked into her eyes: "I do feel the same..."

We immediately went to take a swim in that beautiful clear sea.
We were the only people in that place, just her and I... like the first time, and nothing was better than that.

"What's on your mind?" I asked her.
She seemed lost in thought.

Bella clutched her body against mine as she leaned in closer to kiss me.
Our lips brushed heavy with an urgency desire and a bittersweet melancholy.

"I can no longer remember what I had before this..." She finally spoke.
Her hands caressing my face, tracing contours as if memorizing every detail.

She bit her lips: "You're the only thing I think about, day and night." Her voice was both soft and intense.
There's a quiet tremor to it, like she was revealing unspoken emotions.

Then she shook her head with a slight hesitation:
"I had the need to tell you this, Ellie, I couldn't keep it inside any longer."

As I pulled her into a tighter embrace, my arms encircled her as my heart raced.
"I've been holding onto these feelings too, Bella... but knowing that you feel the same... it makes all the longing worth it." My voice trembled with emotions.

"Because-" Bella spoke impetuously but paused.
"I've never wanted anyone more than you." She affirmed with that confidence that took my breath away.

I sighed deeply, I could feel desire and fear growing in me.
"The feeling is mutual, Bella, and this is so... overwhelming and almost unbearable." I confessed.

"Oh, Ellie..." She sighed as she gave me an urgent kiss.
Her wet body against mine... we kept holding into each other warmly.

Her breathing growing in intensity:
"I never wanted to be better for anyone until I met you. It never felt like this. I can't fight it, Ellie... and I don't want to."

I stood there in silence, listening to those wonderful words, with a knot in my throat and something growing warmly in my heart.

I looked at the sea, then at her, straight into her sincere eyes, mine were almost teary:
"I feel like... l've been lost all my life until now- and somehow with you, l'm found." I whispered.

Bella's smile melted, but her expression became more wistful somehow:
"So why does it have to be so difficult?"
Her hopeful gaze stared at me in search of a positive answer.

My heart stopped.
"I ... don't know... I really don't... know."
I struggled to speak through a lump in my throat.

I couldn't find a possible positive answer...
I immediately felt guilty about that.

Our arms encircled with despair.
I felt the steady rhythm of her heartbeat against my chest, that was pounding.

Bella sighed on my shoulder: "The thought of losing you terrifies me."
Her voice had broken.

My heart skipped a beat.
I feel like I might sink now.

I shook my head, squeezing her body as hard as I could: "Don't think about it... keep holding me, please, Bella..."