"Diary"

Entry #7

I love music. More importantly I love haunting music,the kind that emotionally affects you and stays with you long after. That kind of music is very hard to find these days among other things like love or life that goes with yours. I love jazz. More specifically slow jazz with a woman singer, I like singers and dancers but to be honest I love singers more. I think I like them more because I think it's more sensual to have a woman that can make you feel something with her voice instead of her body. If you don't think I'm a gentlemen already that's probably a big indicator that I am. I'm more into the voice and personality of a woman than her body and what she can do with it. Anyway I like woman singers with jazz because I usually get the feeling of being in a bar in the fifties down on my luck but I turn around I see this woman who's singing this sad song because she was done wrong by a fella but she knows that she has to make a living so she sings at this bar so she can forget,move on and earn her keep.....that is what I feel. It sounds like a scene within itself only because I've had a lot of time to think about it,this one scene is always what I think about whenever I listen to slow jazz which is most of the time because I'm just......broken and tired on the inside and I want to just sit at a bar and listen to a woman sing. My talent with instruments is decent just give me time and I'll learn any instrument you want me to,most recently I've been leaning toward learning piano so I can learn emotional songs. I'm a decent singer. My ability to sing came from my mom because she was always singing to me when I was young and she liked Amy Winehouse so she sang a lot of her music too,at a young age I was exposed to slow moving songs. Me and my mom still sing together.....I think that's one of the best things we do together,I love her......I love you mom. When I was young about six probably younger she sang me a lullaby most of the time and i will never forget it, I want to someday sing it to my kids and have them feel the same feeling I always felt when my mom sang it,love.