When Jesus asked for help from his father on the cross he was met with silence. He cried out to his father why have you forsaken me,he felt that he was truly removed or "cut off" at that very moment he felt alone.
I'm using one of the most difficult to understand and intense moments in the bible as a sort of jumping off point of I feel. Hi I'm the writer as all of you or some of you may know and I feel the need to write this down. A recent event in my life made me feel exactly how Jesus felt when he cried out his father except I wasn't crying to my father,I was reaching out to a woman. I felt alone at the end of the short conversation we had,I expressed how I was feeling and I was met with a lack of.....care and investment. After all the times I've been there for her and supported her through everything and given her anything,she wasn't able to help me because she didn't know what to do. That's not what truly matters to me because she was being honest about it but what really does that she didn't try to understand,to ask questions or to say something with an amount of care. That's what really hurt,that's what really threw me over that she wasn't able to be there for me when I was always there for her. I never realized how one-sided our little agreement was until then,until then I always thought that she'll be there when I need her or if I ask her of something she'll do it just give her time. No.....no it never was and I don't think it would ever be. You might see her as the good person here and I should be gracious to her and that's fine I can't change your mind but I feel like it just doesn't feel that way,it feels unfair and unkind and now there's a giant hole in my thinking for her. It's different now,she's different now.
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"Diary"
RandomI've done diaries in the past but I got the urge to do one again because of mad men. I went straight to the episode of don on his own in his apartment ,writing down his thoughts.
