Love in micrometer

~THE ART OF BEING EMBARRASSED ~

Siddhi

I had to run from home, and I could not breathe, but it was worth it because I reached the platform just on time. I can see the train coming to the platform. I woke up late because I chose to watch a series for some ‘me time’ and ultimately led to this rush.

To my luck, Appa was not around to drop me. Hence, here I am after running as though I have multiple lives. I hopped into the train and sat down. I was going alone today. Priya has some lab work to finish, so she has left early.

I can not look out the window like a puppy because, well, it is metro, so I have a plan B. I took out the novel I had been carrying in my bag. I could not read it because I usually travel with Priya, and I prefer talking to her.

Wait, I haven’t seen him in a long time. Maybe I am lucky today, I thought and giggled to myself. I turned my head trying to find for him, but the crowd had increased, blocking my sight from the place where he usually sits. In the next station, a few passengers got down, and I could see him in his usual spot.

I smiled to myself and went ahead to read the book. I am curious, I want to know if that goddess like a pretty woman in seere will come on the same train.

I was eyeing the compartment in search of her, and as I was doing this, my eyes locked with that boy. I panicked and turned my head urgently to the other side. I swear he really saw me today. No, I am definitely sure he saw me looking at him, although for the first time, I actually wasn’t.

That was when my dear friend who resided in my head decided to show up. I have named her ‘fake scenario fairy’. She creates all possibilities that can come out of a situation and makes me panic.

Oh! God. He caught me watching him, but this time, I wasn’t. He knows I exist now; this is awkward. I don’t want to be visible.

Ahhhh! Wait, he sees many people every day, and there is no way he will remember me.

Right!!! He won’t remember me, obviously, because he saw me just this one time. Cool……. Right, he for sure won’t. It is me, after all.  I had to stop the fairy. She can get out of hands sometimes.

I was trying to block all the unnecessary thoughts from my head, only for me to realise that I have been mouthing all this the whole time. Once again,  ashamed of my stupidit and  anger following it, I frowned and lifted my head. Surprise replaced my frown  when I saw that Avi’s friend,  whose name I could not remember no, was sitting right next to me.

He turned towards me and smiled. Or that is what it looked like. ‘What a beautiful day’ I thought. There is one way to embarrass yourself in front of the so called ‘crush’ by getting caught red handed and there is another way to get embarrassed in front of your friend’s friend by talking to yourself. I did both. IN THE SPAN OF 2 MINUTES. I am now ready to take this as a signal from God to leave this world. ‘Bye’ I said and smiled back to him, heavily embarrassed AGAIN.