My Mother's Secret - A Sequel To The Summer of 1993

We're Still On For May?

     I was sort of pissed at Johnny, but around mid April he started coming around.   He asked if mom and I were coming to see him at Bethel Woods.  "And how are you feeling my darling?"  I told him my head was still in the toilet most mornings.  He told he it would get better.  "Mom was like that with Jackie,". I told him.   He asked how she was.  I said, "A menopausal witch."  He laughed.   She and my dad were getting along though.   He said something in the car as we drove home one Friday.   "She is really a lot calmer.  She falls asleep on the couch easily.  She sleeps in church as well.  It is kind of funny,". He said.  He went to church with her from time to time.  It was cute.  I met them for lunch from time to time.  Sometimes I went to church but it was just old people.  

   I met mom for breakfast at the Lodge.   She had a friend who served pancakes there.  He had hopes of mom falling for him if something happened to dad.  I found him creepy the way he stared at her.  Mom was a very pretty lady.  Even being big, she turned heads.  She looked like Vanessa Paradis if she was plus sized. We were stared at nonetheless, then we went shopping. Mom was losing weight, except her gut. Grandma was concerned, "I think it's a toomor," she said. Mom loved to eat. She had a hearty appetite. She ate like a frat boy. She had three big slices of pizza at some county lunch thing. The tops fit, but pants were hard to find. "I just went a pair of nice jeans forth concert, is that too muck to ask. I don't want those female fans to look at me in disgust," she admitted. I reminded her, "it's Johnny you should care about." She looked away. She was still in love with him.

We ended up with spanx. "I can fit a 20. Mom must be proud," she said, I felt a bit insulted as I was an 18-20 but pregnant. She's said she wanted a granddaughter to spoil. "Pretty dresses and dolls," she said. "Dad loves Bobby.  When you went out, he had Bobby on his lap telling him about the game." It was sweet and dad loved that big, Johnny was sort of indifferent. He tried. He asked about me, the baby, my husband, and mom. I decided to talk about my mom.

"Mom thinks you are grossed out by her because she got fat. Johnny, how do you feel about mom?"
"She still is beautiful. Now that I think of it, she reminds me of Vanessa."
"She thinks you are grossed out by her because she is fat."
"Not at all. Look, we made love and I have feelings about it. I sort of see someone, um, for that,"
"For that? A fuck buddy?"
"I guess. Where did you learn to talk like that?"
"Mom."
"You are a little older. Please don't judge. I can't go out there and like date."
"Mom has a dildo." Why didn't say that?

I made him speechless. I made Johnny Depp speechles.

"So, yeah," he said. I giggled. "Does your mom still cheat?"
"With her dildo."
"It kind of turns me on."
"Well it's clear and pink." He laughed.

He said, "We're still on for May, right?"
"Yes."

It was going to be interesting...