I looked at her for a few seconds until I picked her up in my arms and continued to carry her towards our room.
I opened the bedroom door, and gently placed her on her side of the bed. I moved her hair away from her face, and just continued to look at her.
I never wanted her to hate me, nor did I ever want us to have such a bad relationship. I'm afraid that if I give her my better side and if I relax, she might be the one who will suffer the most and be hurt. It's easy to understand and stick to a side when I'm in a job that can hurt her, even though she's been surrounded by the mafia all her life without even knowing it, but the enemies know, even though it's been kept as secret as long as possible. Now she is more stubborn and doesn't listen to anything, so it's harder to communicate with her. Barbara is just a pawn in all this, but I think that now it's all crossing the line and it won't end well. Barbara is a person who was never something important in my life, in the sense that I would give my life for her, while I would die for Bella right now. She is everything in the world to me, from the day she was born and when I saw her. It may sound a bit funny, but I have never seen a more beautiful girl than her.
I took off my clothes and lay down next to her. I'll get up before she wakes up so there won't be an argument. I know she will create chaos if she sees me next to her.
Now that I think about it, I could play with her. I think that would be a very bad idea, but...what was I ever afraid of.
I opened my eyes wide when I felt a slap all over my face. I stood up suddenly not knowing where I was for a few seconds. I turned my head to the side and saw Bella, covered with a sheet, crying, furious. Maybe I exaggerated a bit. I forgot that I took off her clothes yesterday, but not all the way.
"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO TO ME!?" She shouted at the top of her voice, that the walls were shaking.
"Don't you remember that you were the one who wanted to try everything. You're the one who jumped on me and started kissing me. Not to mention how much you smelled for the wine you drank. You could have set a limit for yourself, but you got drunk." She looked at me in shock. I wanted to start laughing but I remained serious and just followed her. I don't know what to expect from her in this state.
"How could you!? You raped me while I was sleeping!! Why don't I remember anything?" She asked me, not knowing that this was just my joke.
"No, no, no. Why are you saying that? Don't accuse me of something I didn't do. That's a very bad accusation. I'm the one who should say that you used me. I was just being good and listening to your orders. Will you hear them?" I asked her hoping she would say yes.
"Yes, I want to hear your lies." She answered and I laughed to myself.
"First you hugged me. After that you bit my lip, which still hurts. I told you that you were drunk and to stop, but you jumped into my arms and asked me, don't you want me? I.. I looked in amazement and just kept silent. I put you down and went to the room where you were following me the whole time. You said that you want me and that you are aware of everything. You said that you want me totouch your pussy again, that we should finally bless the marriage that you hate so much. I obeyed you and began to rub you, but that wasn't enough, you took off your bra and told me to suck your nipples. I didn't know what was happening. It was like someone hit me on the head with something, and after some time you fell asleep and I stared at the ceiling for hours. You used me!" I shouted that last thing to her, even though I wanted to start laughing out loud because she went all pale.
"I knew you had nothing to say to me, I feel taken advantage of." I told her and got out of bed.
She remained sitting on the bed, and looking at one point, while she let the sheet fall off her. She's only in a bra and panties.
