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This Is Everything I Didn't Say [EN]

Poezie

I write stories about me, about people I meet, about those I wish I met and about the few I dream of. These are the secrets of my silence, in the form of lyricism and in the shape of verses. The first poems you read might make you laugh (although I...

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Missing You

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by plumedauroreoubliee

by plumedauroreoubliee

*Feel free to skip if you hate One Direction. This was written on March 27th, 2015 - 2 days after one of the boys left the band.*

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Four in our eyes, five in our hearts
It already seems long ago
But you've been here
Here with us for the past four years
That went by too fast but were filled
With memories far from forgotten

Your voice, your smile, your happiness
You shared it all with us
All of your heart poured into it
Helped saving me from myself
Helped saving me from my own hate
Helped saving my life

But you left in the middle
Mid-sentence, mid-journey
You put an end to it all
So much hate pushed you to the edge
You wished us good luck
And you jumped off the rollercoaster

I didn't wanna say goodbye
I didn't wanna accept the "not anymore"s
I couldn't believe you had left
Left behind all the people that needed you most
Now nothing will ever be the same
I'm sorry they stole your privacy and your life
I'm sorry if I cry, but we'll never be complete again

We're missing you boy
But we have to move on
We all know it's a long run
"Shadows come with the pain
That we're running from"
Your brothers rightly sang in unison

Our leaders encouraged us
Cheered us up as we cheered up
We fight everyday to make it
And have each other's backs
As we hop back onto the road
Since there's no going backwards

I'm already dreading the ending
Fearing the last goodbye
I wish this journey would never stop
I wish I wasn't scared to forget
I just wanna go back in time
Where times were easier and happier

I'm already missing it all
The laughs and friendship
The complicity and family spirit
The music and the likelihood of forever
But I know we'll always be there
Because we promised it.

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[NOTE FROM 2024-10-20]

I cut out some lines that felt too repetitive and made it into some sort of... eulogy, for Liam Payne. Accidentally. Though the poem was written in an entirely different context, 9 years ago and some. But I'm not particularly sorry about it. I just have to let it out I suppose, and writing has always been an outlet for me.