Martini Kisses (epistolary) ✔️

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e m i l i a🔒 @eafntbll • 1hr

hi, eleven

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e m i l i a🔒 @eafntbll • 1hr

it's strange addressing this differently when this had been a space i reserved for me and maestra for when i'm missing her

but you know what i realized when i started to reread my posts here?

it's that since you came into my life, all i ever talk to her about is you

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e m i l i a🔒 @eafntbll • 1hr

so might as well just turn this into our space?

i hope you don't mind that we're talking like this

i don't know how to open my heart, baby

i'm still teaching myself how because i lived my life thinking i wouldn't have any use for it

i didn't really expect you'd come into my life like this

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e m i l i a🔒 @eafntbll • 1hr

i'm taking my little steps back to you

like what my r and n told me

this is a small part of that

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e m i l i a🔒 @eafntbll • 1hr

today, i finally had a talk with mom

we settled everything and i now have my closure

i didn't forgive her

but i realized i don't really need to

at least not yet

but maybe neve was right

that i need to forgive myself first

for depriving myself of feeling anything the past years

i'm still learning how to do that too

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e m i l i a🔒 @eafntbll • 1hr

i also met and bonded with xerx and sammy

it broke my heart seeing how nervous they were to be around me because they don't really know me that much

we only ever saw each other in video calls

it breaks my heart thinking i have to leave them again

what's good is, i can visit them more in the future

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e m i l i a🔒 @eafntbll • 1hr

mom is retiring

she told me

to focus on my brothers, she said

i don't know what to feel about that but i think she's blaming herself for what happened to lolo

i'm still blaming her too :(

i wish i'd stop blaming her

i'm glad it's over though

she and dad, they're really over

i hope they learned their lesson properly na after hurting everyone around them

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e m i l i a🔒 @eafntbll • 1hr

baby

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e m i l i a🔒 @eafntbll • 1hr

i'm back at the hotel now

it's a starry night

there are no shooting stars here but there's a wishing well

i'm holding the necklace you gave me when i tossed the coin into the water and made my wish

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e m i l i a🔒 @eafntbll • 1hr

can i tell you what it is?

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e m i l i a🔒 @eafntbll • 1hr

that you're my eleven

so i'm praying fervently to be the one

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e m i l i a🔒 @eafntbll • 1hr

i really really want to be the one for you

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e m i l i a🔒 @eafntbll • 1hr

11.11, kai

i hope you know that you are and have always been my one and only wish

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