Full Moon Under You

Chapter 13

Kylie's POV

The bell rang and I went to my locker to gather my things. It was a half-day today for whatever reason. I told Derek I would be there to train earlier than usual. I had plans with Allison and Lydia tonight. I was planning on telling them all about me, my past, what happened with Derek. I've been around them long enough that I can tell they care about me. I've also grown to trust them.

"So 9:00 tonight?" asked Lydia.

"Yes, and Jax bought me two bottles of the cheapest wine she could find." I added with a smile.

"Yay, god, I feel like I haven't had a girls night in forever!" Allison said cheerfully.

"Well, I have to go train, I'll see you guys later."

I waved goodbye and headed towards Derek's place.

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I walked up to Derek's door and paused. I think I want to apologize for how frigid I was when we talked about us. We can still care for each other and respect each other. I miss having him as someone I could talk to, someone I could lean on. I started to open the door to enter.

Wait, what was I hearing? 

Two heartbeats?

I guess Scott came to train today, but he didn't tell me he was coming at school.

I walked into Derek's apartment and looked around. I thought I'd at least hear them talking. I looked around the training room and nobody was there. That's strange. I went back out to the main area and noticed a lump in Derek's bed.

Okay, so he's not a morning person.

Or an early afternoon person.

I walked over towards his bed and stopped dead in my tracks.

Oh.

He's laying next to a girl.

Their clothes were thrown around the bed, and there was... EW, two condom wrappers.

I took some deep breaths and felt my eyes starting to glow. Derek eventually opened his eyes to meet mine. He looked next to him and his eyes widened.

"Kyl-"

"Get up and let's train." I spat out, then stormed off.

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I heard Derek wake up the random girl and have her leave. She kept insisting he should text her and Derek just kept saying "It's not a good time."

A couple minutes later, Derek walked into the training room and stared at me.

I was doing pull-ups, so I wasn't facing the door, but I felt his eyes burning holes into my back.

"Kylie, I-"

"So, what are we doing today?" I asked, trying to keep myself composed.

"Kylie, let's talk about this."

"There's nothing to talk about. I came here to train, so let's train."

"It meant nothing."

"I don't care what it meant to you, it's none of my business, we're not together."

"Kyl-" Derek tried to say before I interrupted him.

"Fine, you want to talk? Let's talk. I don't care about what random girls you decide to fuck at night. I just thought you'd maybe have the decency to not have them here when I come to train. Training that you're asking me to do." 

"Kylie, I didn't mean to have her here. I don't even remember coming home with her. I do care about you enough to not do that."

I took a deep breath, before I yelled, "You care about me? You think we're friends? Derek, I've had enough people fuck me over in my life, I don't need you to pretend you care about me." My eyes started to glow. "You know what, fuck you. I opened up to you, I told you I wanted something more, because I care about you, Derek. And what's even crazier is that I was actually going to apologize about how I reacted the other day. I was going to tell you that we can still be friends. But now, I don't want to see you. I'll tell Scott I'll train with him. Have fun fucking whatever random girls you come across."

I started to move towards him. I heard my guides telling me to calm down and shift back, but I just needed to say one more thing.

"But just know, Derek, I would've been there for you. I would've been someone you could trust. I would've been someone you could lean on. I would've been the thing I know you're longing for. I can see it when I look into your eyes. But, you lost me." My voice started to shake. "You hurt me, you broke me. And you're someone I never thought would do that to me."

Before he could see me cry, I brushed past him.

I felt myself shifting back and my senses going back to normal, but I could still hear Derek punching the wall of the training room.

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Derek's POV

I kept punching the wall. I threw things across the room. I growled and I didn't care who heard it or who came looking for me.

Why was I so stupid?

It felt like a part of me had just been ripped out and walked out the door. That is what happened when I really thought about it.

She was right. She is everything I've been longing for. She is everything to me.

And I fucked it up. 

When she walked out, I felt like I couldn't breathe. When she left, she took all of the air from me.

I told her I didn't know anything about her, but I know everything I need to.

She is the strongest, most beautiful woman that has ever walked into my life. She even made me laugh when I found it so hard to do these days.

After some time of sitting and sifting through my thoughts (and analyzing the damage I've done to my apartment), I realized that I can't be without her. She completes me. I'm utterly useless without her. I love her. 

And I need to get her back.