Always, Lily

▫️Thirty two

LILITH

No.

Maybe my speculation was wrong.

It wasn't like that. I wiped my face and slowly began to walk away. He would never do that to me.

Enzo would never lie.

I was just being sensitive. I had probably read it wrong. I tried to convince myself, even with the evidence before me.

Tears clouded my vision that I had to stop. I leaned on the wall next to me, pursing my lips together to shake away the bitterness.

I wanted to believe otherwise. I trusted Enzo with every fiber of my body. He was a virtuous man, what we had was genuine.

We were doing so well. Nothing about all I'd heard made sense. I wanted to believe that Enzo was going no where. There was still much of what we had to achieve together.

It couldn't be. I repeated the chant in my head as more tears trickled down my cheeks.

It was futile. I was lying to myself. I remembered a picture I'd once seen on Clarissa's phone.

The boys; Enzo, Reece and Grey were together. They were in uniform. I had come across the picture by chance when we were hanging out.

I had asked about it. When it was taken, how they had come to know each other. I just wanted to know about Enzo's past but I remember how the girls went silent to my question.

At that time, I didn't think much but right now, what they were trying to keep from me was clear. Enzo was still part of the team.

The words from before only proved that he was here for a short while.

Then what about us? Were we also for a short while?

Everything appeared blurred before me. The sleeves of my lab coat were wet with my tears.

Everything I knew seemed to be a lie. The person I thought I knew had changed with just a few words.

I remembered his words clearly. I used to be a military doctor. He'd said so. Used. Used.

Then why would he be returning to his captain? Why didn't he tell me about Reece and Grey?

I didn't even try to think about his real mission here in the hospital. It was too painful for me. He had lied to me.

He was the only man I'd ever opened up to this much. Our moments flashed before my eyes and a sniffle escaped me.

No.

No.

The tears furiously came out. I hid my face into the wall, not caring about anyone walking this way.

None of this was true. This was just a nightmare. I thought to myself, holding onto this assumption dearly.

"Lilith."

I wasn't immune to his voice. My body trembled and I quickly wiped away the water in my eyes.

I turned around to face him. Lorenzo. The man I loved.

I even put on a smile, the smile I only had for him. He didn't return the gesture.

My heart dropped. I stumbled on my feet, supporting myself with the wall. His face was rigid. There was no warmth in his gaze.

I reigned back another pool of tears. This wasn't him. Where was the real Enzo?

"What is happening, Enzo?" I asked, resting my back on the wall. My feet could give out any time.