Always, Lily

▫️ Thirty nine

LORENZO

It was inevitable.

This day was supposed to arrive but I didn't like how fast it had come. My time with her had felt too short.

I didn't want to part with her yet, I never wanted to.

She was in my arms, yet she felt so far away from me. Her arms were tightly wrapped around my waist, her face buried into my chest.

I could hear her silent sniffles, even with the chatter around us. I soothingly rubbed her back to comfort her, if not myself.

Our families were here to see me off. I still found it hard to believe that her family had accepted me. I wasn't perfect, yet they had welcomed me with open arms.

Her brother, Orion, must have put in a good word for me because I wasn't that confident the day she introduced me to everyone.

Though I had met her mother before, the situation had changed. I wasn't that ordinary doctor she thought of before so I really didn't expect her to be so warm with me.

I'll call you son from now, were the words her father had whispered to me that day.

Watching her parents seated at the same table with mine, our mothers chatting like best friends, I really felt at home in this garden we'd rented.

"I'll miss you Enzo," Lilith whispered into my chest for what felt like the twentieth time.

"I'll miss you the most," I lowered my face to her shoulder, inhaling her scent like my life depended on it.

I wanted to remember this scent every second of the day. I wanted to carry this warmth with me. I didn't want to forget even a small detail about her.

Her sparkly eyes whenever she smiled, the way her eyebrows rose when she was surprised about something.

They way she would laugh and hit my arm playfully at a joke she'd made. I would miss every inch of her.

I had tried to beg Grey for more time with her. I knew he had grown tired of me since it was the only thing I ever asked him since last month.

Reece had tried to reason with me. He'd mentioned that delaying my departure would only be more painful for her when the time came.

Grey had also mentioned that I was never going to be ready to leave, no matter the time I had to prepare.

And indeed it was true. I felt my eyes water at the thought of leaving her, without even knowing when my next break was.

Unlike Grey and Reece who had breaks when they weren't at the frontline, I was needed at all times.

I closed my eyes, burying my face further into her hair. "Just for a moment, Venesse."

I didn't care of our families watching, I held onto her, fighting back the tears that were threatening to fall.

Truly, I'd miss every bit of her.

"Don't forget me Enzo." She pleaded with me and I hugged her even tighter. That was impossible.

"I can never forget my reason to live." I was attached to her more than she could ever realize.

Everything about me revolved around her. She was more than just a girlfriend. She was the warmest blanket I could ever have around me.

My love for her was beyond measure. There truly wasn't anything that could amount to my passion for her.

A thought I had been trying to suppress all week crossed my mind again. I felt terrible with myself for even making such an assumption but it really was slowly eating me in the inside.