Ella's POV
I don't have the courage to talk to her.. Jema went home straight sa bahay kahit d naman kami nag uusap... nandyan lang sya.. minsan oa maaga sya nauwe at sa bahay na tinatapos ang work nya. Kung ano pwesto namin dati matulog baliktad muna kami ngayon... tatabi lang sya saken and slid her hands sa uluan ko.
halos araw araw ganun lang... but we never talked about it.
One night. patulog na kami and jema hugged me tight ulet sa likod ko.
"je.." tawag ko sa kanya
"hmmm" sagot lang nya
"ayaw mo na ba saken?" tanong ko nalang sa kanya
"pag iisipan ko la." Jema replied "by the way la... kinausap ko si Meg... and ... she mentioned that mababakante ang position nya sa dati naming work... she asked me to take it.. sayang daw.. she and her family will be migrating to US na" Jema said
bumalikwas ako at humarap sa kanya.
binuhay ni Jema ang lamp na nasa side table.
"kukuhanin mo???" tanong ko sa kanya at kinakabahan ako sa sagot nya.
"I said yes..." tumulo na luha ko..
"ayaw mo na ba talaga saken love?" naiyak na ako... alam ko na sobrang gago ko but... thinking na mawawala na talaga sya.
"I will say yes... if hindi mo ako kakausapin ng matino love.... finally nakipag usap kana din... walanf mangyayare sa atin love kung magtititigan lang tayong dalawa... napapanis laway ko tuwing gabi e... pero syempre.. ayaw kita pilitin at baka mastress kalang. at least diba baka sa SG may kumausap saken" ngumiti lang si jema saken
"love... i am sorry... gago talaga ako love... patawarin mo na ako... and.. please love wag mo ako iwanan" I cried to her begging
"mas madami ka ngang ginawang sakripisyo for me... ako .. ni isa wala akong maalala" I added
"love... hindi naman to padamihan ang sakripisyo... All i need from you... is your full trust saken kasi.. ganun kabuo ang tiwala ko sayo.... aanhin ko ung mga ginagawa ko for you if wala ka ding tiwala saken" Jema said and i felt so guilty for not giving those to her.
"i waited for you love ng matagal... ang tanga ko naman if I'm just going to waste it like that... I had fear of rejections yet I took the courage to tell you the truth... kahit alam ko that time wala namang pag asa... but loving you love... is all that I got... magaan lang mag sakripisyo if mahal mo ang tao diba? I dont mind na antayin ka ng paulet ulet.... just let me have that trust love..." Jema said and yeah shes right
"I am sorry love... nahiya na ako sayo thats why I dont have the courage to speak to you this fast few days... hindi ko na uulitin love... naging mahirap saken ang ginagawa ko sayo coz you dont deserved that... tama ka.. i know you more than anyone else aside from your family." I said and hold her check and caress with my thumb.
"I miss you... forgive me" I said.. ngumiti lang si Jema and she kissed me... napapikit ako and I missed her a lot... tumulo na luha ko kasi sobrang mahal ko sya.
"its okay love.. i forgive you... i love you" Jema said.
"I love you love ... i love you.." I said
"hmmm... Meg followed you after your meet up with Mike... shes been looking for me.. nagtaka pasya bakit ka daw umalis that day.. and I told her about you.. she had no idea and she understand why I cut ties with her... she said sorry and she didnt know" Jema told me why Meg suddenly appeared that day
"if Mike told you about those lies.. i dont know his intentions but.. i dont have grudges against him... all I want is for you to believe me love... it doesnt matter anymore if Mike or whoever told you.. i cant even allow anyone to touch me like you do love.. i cant"
I sighed.
"I still doubted you that time love even if deep inside alam ko na di moko kayang lokohin.. its just that mike did those to me despite him love me that much... but.. as i told you before... parang need mangyare yon to re direct me to you.. coz... sayo talaga love" I said and jema smiled.
"yes.. you are mine love... I am yours" Jema said and kissed me again.
"so love.. okay na tayo???" I asked her
"yes love... kinausap mo na ako e so okay na tayo" jema said and niyakap nya na ako...
i felt so great and be able to feel almost losing someone you love the most.. it wasnt the most good feeling but at least i know now what no to do next.
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Safe Haven (Jella Jema and Ella)
FanfictionIt started since we were kids and growing up with her and having her around became a norm between us. She's my favorite person. I knew everything about her and Slowly how I looked at her changes as we grow older. Though our characters were different...
