Hate You Love You

Chapter Special 5

GUARDIAN ANGEL
(Part 2)

POND POV

Now, two years have passed by; this will be my last year as God gave me a time limit. I am slowly letting go of my regrets and lingering feelings because, for these past 2 years, I have seen progress in Phuwin and Fourth. They started to be happy and cheerful again. Phuwin became more lively and I can see his genuine smile more often now, thanks to our sons. They are always be there for Phuwin, both our parents too. They are always there for Phuwin, always give him the support he needs.

Sometimes had conversations with Phum when he is alone in his room, I mean, he's the only one who can see me. Glakao also sometimes pops up and plays with Phum, then disappears again, I guess he went to Fourth and played with Gun.

Although everything turned out well, there's one thing that I still need to work on. That is Joong. He may look fine on the outside, always look stoic and emotionless but deep down I know he blaming himself for not realizing what happening to his best friend. Feeling helpless when knowing the truth about my illness. Although that was years ago and my surgery went well, I live my life healthy but still he still had that guilt feeling.

Joong has this tendency to keep it inside, he rarely shows his emotions, even when there are problem occured, he will trying to solve it by himself. Even from me, his best friend. I'm grateful that he have Dunk now, since meet Dunk, Joong started to open up, being honest about his feeling and what he was thinking. I think, Dunk is the only person Joong can be like this. Change him to be the better version of himself.

I went to Joong's house, as a temporary Guardian Angel with limited time. I should move quickly. I don't want Joong to keep that guilt and sadness within him. I want him to let it all go.

I spotted Joong sitting down in his work room, he lent back to his chair looking all tired. I also see a pile of papers in front of him. I guess, the job as CEO of a large company really exhausted him.

As he closed his eyes, he let out a long sigh, ''It's been three years....'' Joong mumbled

''Three years...''

Joong keeps repeating the same words. Joong sighed again.

Then someone knocked on his door, ''Babe, you in there?'' is Dunk's voice, ''Can I come in?''

Joong responded with a 'yes', Dunk opened the door while holding a glass of water on his hand. Dunk walked close to Joong and put the water on Joong's desk. Joong pulled Dunk's waist and buried his face rubbing Dunk's stomach.

Dunk smile, ''Feeling spoiled, huh, my big puppy?'' Dunk said, Joong is still hugging Dunk's waist keep rubbing his face to Dunk's.

Joong didn't respond, Dunk frowned, ''Joong, you okay?'' Dunk ask,

''It's been three years, Dunk,'' Joong said still burying his head

''Yeah, times flew by so fast and the day after tomorrow will be the 3rd anniversary since he's gone,'' Dunk responded while gently caressing Joong's hairs.

''There's a heavy feeling every year, I don't know...I just...''

''You still feeling guilty? Joong, it's been years since the CAMP na, we've been through that, the surgery went well, he's alive and live a healthy life, even became a doctor, married my beloved nong, had 3 amazing son, and here you are, still stuck with that time,'' Dunk said and I nodded in agreed

''I know, but...what if I realize quickly about his illness, pressured him to go to hospital earlier, the result will be different now. His health will not rapidly decline so suddenly, Fourth will not have his PTSD worsened, Phuwin will not be depressed, Mork, Palm and Phum will not lose Pond at such a young age and we'll not have to do the anniversary every year. All of this...all of this is my fault-'''