Hate You Love You

Chapter Special 4

GUARDIAN ANGEL
(Part 1)

POND POV

I don't know what life is like after we die. Is it bright or dark, is it warm or cold? Is it full of calmness or full of misery? To be honest, I don't know. It may sound weird, but I couldn't feel anything; what I see now is just that everything is white. No one around me. Is this what Heaven looks like? I just don't know. Am I going to see the One who created life?

''You are finally awake, Pond,''

Suddenly, out of nowhere, I heard a voice. I'm not sure if it was a male or female voice; the voice was doubled, like one voice on top of another.

''Who are you?'' I said looking around for the source of the voice

I heard chuckled, ''Dear son, you'll not be able to see me even if you look around like a puppy searching for his master,'' the voice said

Now why feel insulted? Is he making fun of me?

''Are you...God?''

''Well, you can say that,'' the voice replied, ''Humans called me by many names, but, to make it easy, you can call me God if you like,'' the voice continued

''Alright, God, I have a question,'' I said

''Go ahead,''

''I'm dead, right? Is this Heaven?''

The God chuckled again, ''Not quite true, w; he you can say you're on the path to Heaven's gate,,''

''Ok, but I don't see any path or bridge or any direction to you called 'Heaven's Gate's,'' I said looking around and only seeing white

''That's because it's hidden...''

I frowned, ''Hidden? What do you mean? Am I not allowed to go to Heaven? Am I going to Hell?''

God is laughing frantically. Is He really a God? He's making fun of me again.

''You'll go to Heaven eventually until you let go of the regret and burden from your heart,'' God said which made me flinch

He is really a God; how can he know I still have regret and burden in my heart? The regret of leaving Phuwin alone, the burden of making Phuwin sad and depressed again. Although I know that Phuwin is not completely alone, he has our sons and families who will support and be there for him. Still, the fact that I promise not to leave him again and will stay with him until we grow old. I betrayed that promise. No matter how hard I keep myself healthy, God said the other way, and I had to leave the world earlier.

''Your heart is still heavy, this just makes you stuck here with no progress unless you let it go,''

Let it go? Let my worries for Phuwin's go? My heart still wants to make sure that Phuwin is living well and happy, not sad and depressed; this feeling holds me down from reaching Heaven's Gate.

Can I let this feeling go?

''Well, not just you, your beloved feeling still having a hard time letting you go,''

Phuwin...

''I will give you 2 years,''

I frowned, ''Two years?''

''From today onward, I will let you go back to the world of living, not as a wandering ghost but as a temporary Guardian Angel, to see and guide your family, also help you to let go of those lingering feelings so that you can move on to this side,''