Faded Promises

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Aiden POV

Fuck, she knows it.

It's over.

She won't forgive me and now I'm soulless. The whole conversation echoes in my mind, over and over.

I wanted to go to her house the same day but I know her, she needed space and when I saw Lucy come around I guess she did called her.

Although I'm happy she's there for her I wanted to be the one hugging her.

So, now I'm sitting in my bed without a wink of sleep looking at the clock waiting to be at least 8 am to go to her house.

I waited a whole night. It's enough.

I stand in front of her place, rehearsing the speech in my mind when her dad opens the door.

I don't have a speech for him.

He looks at me and I can see he's angry. "What are you doing here?"

"She told you?"

He nods and grunts " I didn't know a baby was involved."

"I was just a kid. I did what I thought best. I kept my mouth just and away from your daughter"

"I'm not mad at you" he says looking almost with pity towards me " it must've been hard for you to carry that burden"

"I need to see Hanna," I blurt out, my voice straining . "I need to explain. She hates me...."

He sighs and rubs a hand over his stubble jaw " she doesn't hate you. She's devastated. I'm not sure talking with her right now it's a good idea. Give her more time"

"But I need to—" I try to say and I don't care he can sense my desperation.

I take a step forward to the door but he stops me.

"I know you want to fix this, but right now, Hanna needs space. She's hurt and confused, and the last thing she needs is more pressure. It might be better if you go home for now."

"But-"

"How did you felt when you found out?" I couldn't even look at her. I know how she's feeling that's why I wanna be with her.

I was so deep in a hole I couldn't see any light and now we switched places.

I feel like someone has punch me in the gut. The last thing I wanna do is leave but looking at him I know I don't have any choice.

He's protecting her.... I would do the same.

"Please, just let her know I'm sorry," I say , my voice barely above a whisper. "I didn't mean for this to happen."

"I know. It's not your fault. She will realize that eventually. I like you and I know you'll fight for her"

"You like me?"

"You're not your father" he smiles at me " don't hurt her and we're good. You're a good boy"

I'm happy to know that he's on my side but my heart is still heavy with guilt and frustration.

The next day, I'm waiting for Hanna but she doesn't leave the house. Looking foward I see Lucy's car and I get the message.

I just drive in total silence to school.

Every time I see her, Lucy's there like a barrier just like last time.

I can't complain cause she can call a heavier barrier and I'm not talking about Jake.