Faded Promises

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Hanna POV

So, today my dad had to go to work so me and Luce are alone decorating my home.

I felt bad because dad couldn't be here but he ensure me he was ok with that and I should do it with Lucy.

We do have a big Christmas tree, so having Lucy here is essential or I would be here for hours.

The rest of the house is already decorated with all the twinkle lights, and very ornaments spread throughout the table, ready to be hung.

"Hey, hand me that star," Lucy says, trying to keep things light as she reaches for the tree topper.

I give it to her, managing a small smile. "I think it's leaning a little to the left. Try straightening it out."

Lucy adjust the star, then steps back to admire her work. "How's that?"

"Perfect"

"Babes, I don't like seeing you sad"

"I'm ok" I say drinking some hot chocolate

"You're lying. You've been sighing and looking outside the window. He's not home"

"He's not?" Fuck I sounded too concerned

"No. Jake told me he was gonna hang out with the boys. "

"What should I do, Luce?" I ask leaning into the wall

"I can't answer that. I love you both, but you're my girl. You wanna him crawl after what he's done I'll stand by you, if you wanna forget all about it and be with him I'll stand by you. I just want you to be happy"

The thing is I don't know what would make me happy. I love him and I want to be with him but just to think that he was gonna be part of my family kills me .

I can't look at him and not be reminded of that, at least I know why he stoped talking to me. He must've felt the exact same thing.

My thought are interrupted by the door open. My mom walks in and I just think we need to change the locks.

I don't want her here.

We haven't spoke since that time and I'm not ready for another confrontation.

"Hanna, can we talk?" She asks, her tone softer than usual.

Lucy immediately tense up, moving to stand protectively beside me. "I don't think now's a good time," she says

That's my girl, protecting me but something in my mom expression made me hesitate. I can see the sadness in her eyes and for the first time I want to talk to her.

"It's okay, Luce," I say, my voice quiet. "I'll talk to her."

Lucy looks at me uncertainly but nods, stepping back slightly, though she doesn't leave the room.

"When I lost the baby, I lost it. I wanted my baby with me. My oldest baby. I won't apologize for cheating, maybe I should've asked for the divorce first but things happen. I love him and when I got pregnant he told me he would leave Lisa and we would be a family. I talked to your dad immediately. I was honest and we agree on not telling you cause I wanted you and I knew you would get mad at me"

"I guess you know me until a certain point"

"I distance myself from you cause I didn't know how to tell you and the stress wasn't good for the baby"

"So I made you lose the baby?"

"NO. That's not what I'm saying. I love you and I'm so sorry. I can't say anything else"