I am dedicating this chapter to, PurpleSwagDinosaur18. Thanks for the comment love hope the chapter answers your question ;). Ill keep dedicating to you lovely people :).
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I am aware that zayn has 3 sisters but in this story he only has 2 lol. I'm not sure if i got the age right but oh well lol. Hope you like it.! Enjoy.!
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(HARRY'S POV)
I stood there in shook at the broken boy on my doorstep. His face was red and swollen his eyes bloodshot with big tears coming out, He was holding onto his chest for dear life and i froze. I didn't know how to move because one he was here and two i never had to fix him before, he always fixed me. My body carried me forward with no confirmation from my head.
"Niall?"He only responded with a loud sob. My brain finally caught up. I reached for him.
"Ni what is it? Whats wrong? What happened."I heard the panic in my voice. He let out another heartbreaking cry i finally got him in my arms. He collapsed making us both fall. I held him.
"Babe you need to tell me, Your scaring me. I-I don't know what to do."
"H-Haz."His voice so weak so rough. I grabbed him tighter.
"I'm here Ni I'm here."
"it hurts everything hurts" I felt my own tears now.
"What is it? You have to tell me, I cant fix you until i know."He finally brought his face up from my chest looking into my eyes. I never seen so much hurt in pain in somebody before.
"I cant be fixed harry, I'm so far gone there nothing left."I felt my hear break at his words.
"Don't say things like that, You are here aren't you? Your alive."
"No I'm not, I don't know what being alive means."I felt anger but not toward him, Who ever made him this way.
"I will fix you Niall, Stop saying these things everything will be okay, I will fix you i ave to because you fixed me." He was going to respond but another voice filled the air.
"Hazza who is at the door?"Louis came into view his smile fading out his face fast. "Niall? Harry whats wrong with him? What happened? What... LIAM.! LIAM GET DOWN HERE NOW!" He was at my side in seconds tears already falling from his eyes, he wrapped himself up to Niall squeezing us both. I heard Liam running steps coming toward us.
"What is it Lou? Whats going on? Is someone hurt? This better not be one of your jokes again or so help me god!"He finally got into the door way almost falling through his chest heavy from running and screaming at the same time. He took us all in the three of us all crying he didn't say a word his tired feet walked toward us dropping down on his feet looking defeated wrapping his arms around us all. I knew he was crying but for once i didn't care. We were all crying all four of together Niall was home that's all that mattered at the moment.
(ZAYN'S POV)
I knew i fucked up, The look on his face the hurt in his eyes but i couldn't. I couldn't do that with him there not while it was for all the wrong reasons. When he touched and kissed my scars i wanted to cry he made it feel like they weren't there in that moment i had hope, I thought things would be okay that i could have the life i wanted away from my father away from everything. In that moment i just wanted it to be me and him and i thought it was. I was so caught up in him and the fact someone just like me someone that understood the pain the tears and everything in between. He was just like me someone that could accept me without regret or pity someone that knew and i let myself feel it feel for him. The connection i had to him i knew was real i felt it from the first moment i met him. I lied to myself saying it was because he had more pain, that i could distract myself with him so i didn't need to worry or think about my own but i knew. I always knew it was something more. But tonight showed me just how much more it really was. I didn't want to leave him there but when she spoke when i heard her high pitched voice echoing through the room i felt rage and regret. Not toward him but because of where we were and what we were doing. I thought i was helping him i thought maybe i could save him but I couldn't, He was there doing the same as me. I felt embarrassed that he seen this side of me that he had to witness just how desperate i am. Rage toward my father and myself. I knew i should try to find him explain but i couldn't. I couldn't do anything because I knew i just screwed up I knew how it looked and i cant have him reject me i cant hear him tell me to leave and never come back. that's selfish i know but i just cant deal with more pain not tonight. But as soon as i walked in the door and seen him standing there i knew i would feel pain.
