KINAKABAHAN AKO sa maaring maging resulta ng gagawin namin ni Cody. Paano kung mag-positive? I mean, I'm not yet ready. I still have plans, and having a baby isn't in my plans. And I know he's not yet ready too, we're both not ready for this. We've done that thing once! Ni hindi nga naulit e, and yet nagbunga pa — but we're still not sure. I'm not just nervous but scared too. If it is positive, how can I be a good mother? I'm not even good.
I still have unresolved issues. I badly wish that it's negative.
"Babe, I'm here," humigpit ang hawak ni Cody sa kamay ko. Andito kami ngayon sa clinic dahil hinihintay namin ang resulta ng test na isinagawa sa akin. We want to make sure if I am pregnant or not.
I sighed heavily and look at him, "Kinakabahan ako Cody,"
"Don't be, I'm here," he hugged me.
Bumalik sa upuan niya 'yung doctor na kumuha ng test sa akin, "Congratulions, you're two months pregnant," nakangiting bati sa amin nung doctor.
On that moment, it's like my world tears apart. I mean, like what I've said, I am not ready and yet here I am sitting in this chair inside this clinic, holding my boyfriend's hand, and the doctor just said that I am indeed pregnant.
Who the hell in this earth wouldn't feel that way?
"Thank you, Doc." Narinig kong sabi ni Cody, inalalayan niya akong makatayo, wala pa rin akong masabi. "Let's go, babe." Hanggang sa sasakyan ay wala akong kibo. Na hanggang sa pag-uwi namin sa bahay ay wala akong kibo.
Nasa kwarto kami ngayon, wala pa si Arnold dahil nasa school pa siya, kaya kaming dalawa lang ang naririto sa bahay.
"Babe, you're scaring me, please talk."
"I don't know what to say," tinitigan ko siya sa mata, kita ko roon ang pag-aalala niya sa akin. Ayokong nakikitang nag-aalala siya sa akin pero natatakot talaga ako, "I'm scared,"
"'Wag kang matakot, andito ako hindi naman kita papabayaan,"
"Hindi pa tayo handa sa ganito,"
"Ano naman? Andyan na 'yan, we can't do anything but to take care of the baby,"
"I'm two months pregnant, and we've been in a relationship for two months, dalawang buwan Cody. Anong sasabihin ko kay Arnold?"
"Why do you care so much, kahit pa nga ba isang buwan pa lang 'yung relasyon natin, ano naman? You're pregnant, yes! So? Hindi naman kita papabayaan."
"We're not even married! Yes, I may be a rebel before, pero kahit kailan hindi sumagi sa isip ko na magpabuntis ng hindi kasal."
"So, 'yan ang ipinuputok ng butse mo, because we're not married."
"Yes, at ano na lang ang iisipin ng ibang tao."
"And when do you care about what other people might say? Huh?"
"Hindi sa akin, kundi sayo, iniisip ko ang sasabihin nila sayo. Alam mo naman ang mga pinaggagawa ko, kung ano ako before."
"Do you think I care? I actually don't care! Yes, you did terrible things, and I did too. You were good before you turn into a rebel, and I'm glad that when you met me, you changed. You were actually good, you've never been bad."
Naiiyak na niyakap ko siya, "Hush, don't cry, you look terrible when you cry."
"Shut up."
Natatawang inilayo niya ako sakanya, "Let's go."
"To where?" naguguluhang tanong ko.
"Judge."
"Why?"
BINABASA MO ANG
Twenty Two
RomansaAriana's Mom died in a car accident. She wants justice. But when she met this guy named Cody Smith, she forgot about finding justice for her mom. She fell in love with him, and he fell in love with her. But one day she found out something na ikinasi...
