Rainy Promises - kareena

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Haseena blinked, trying to process Karishma's words. "Why, Karishma?" I mean asa khayal kahan say aya abi achank say....koi khas waja?"

Karishma looked away for a moment, her fingers fidgeting with the edge of the blanket as she struggled to find the right words.

"Please batyay humen....us din aap nay achank say us moment pay shadi ki bat ki aur aaj baby ki...kia chal ha ap Kay dimag ma kia souch rahi han please share kijeyay." She asked again understanding that it's sum up of different things.

"Because I have so many things in my mind. Everything we're going through... it's overwhelming.
And I want to get marry and have baby because..." She paused.

"Because..." Haseena repeated.

"Because I want to get connected to you in some way. I want something, someone that's ours, Haseena. A part of you, a part of me... something that always hold us together. I want that bond that remain alive no matter what happen to us...." Karishma said, her voice trembling slightly.

"Uncle John...." She paused, "aaj humri un say bat hui, you know he said about wanting someone to hold on to, someone to carry forward his connection with his wife...he is regretting about not having child with her wife. it stayed with me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. It's like...It's like I don't want to regret not doing something when I had the chance, wo tou phir un ki wife ti hum tou us had tak bi ap say related nae han."

"Karishma, are you... are you giving up on me?" All haseena could ask.

Karishma's head snapped up.

"No," she said firmly, squeezing Haseena's hand. "I'm not giving up on you. It's just that... I have so many things in my mind right know. So many what ifs. This one word "what if" it's keep circling in my head. Hum kuch nae souch paa rahy han kuch nae samaj paa rahy han humen lgata ha hum positive han, sab theek ho jay ga phir agly hi pal kuch negative bat humry zehan ma aa jati ha kay kahin hum time tou nae waste kar rahy, humen Jo karna chiyay wo nae kar rahy han, phir lagta ha kay kahin hum bi uncle john ki position ma huy tou kia humry pass asa kuch nae ho ga Jo humen ap say jory raky, jis say humra naam ap kay sath liya jay even not married to you.....humen yeh bat pata ha ap han humry sath hum aap ko kabi kuch hony nae dayn gay phir khayal ata ha hum kia hi kar layan gay hum kia kar sakty abi aap itni takleef ma han hum kia karen kia ha hurmy hath ma hum ap ki takleef tak ko kaam nae kar paa rahy han phir kasy baqi sab karen gay....." She stop and exhale.

Karishma looked at haseena who was staring at her feeling the love, the desperation, the fear into her every word. She moved forward and pulled Karishma into her arms, holding her close as if trying to shield her from those fears.

"It scare me, it scare me so much...." Karishma said against her shoulder. "I don't want us to end like this. We barely got to live any moments together. It feels like we're always fighting against time, against everything that tries to pull us apart. And I can't... I can't let it end this way I don't want us to just fade with time."

Haseena stroked her hair gently, "it's ok hum samaj rahy han" she said softly. "It's not just about a baby and marriage. It's about this fear you're feeling...."

Karishma nodded, "I just want something... someone... marriage, baby anything... That belong to you, that belong to us."

Haseena gently broke the hug and gently cupped Karishma's face, her thumbs brushing away the tears from her cheeks. "Karishma, listen to me," she said softly, "Even if we consider the possibility just in case that I might not survive..."

"No," Karishma interrupted, "Don't say it, Haseena. Please don't."

"Okay, okay," Haseena said, "Just hypothetically, if we think about it... even then, don't you think our love is enough. You don't need anything else to keep us connected. What we share it's more than enough."