Sweet Serenity (ON HOLD SORRY GUYS)

Confessions

Well another chapter :) I find it interesting because you find out more about the Rheynold family, but the next few are gonna be SUPER!!

On an extra note between writing this Chapter and the previous I read an amazing book called 'Biting Jasper', so I've dedicated this to the author in appreciation. Enjoy this chapter... and read 'Biting Jasper'!

Chapter 20

I shifted nervously as I sat on the edge of the bed. What did Will mean by everything? Did he want to know about my past, about my feelings? This can’t be good. I couldn’t help but stare at the floor nervously as Will shut the door. I couldn’t bring myself to look at him. Stupid Veronica! Normally I couldn’t take my eyes off of him, so what’s the problem? I felt Will sit beside me, his weight causing the mattress to sink. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder and rested his head on mine. I kept my gaze to the floor as he held me tighter. I was fighting back tears at this point. Emotion washed over me and I could no longer barricade the tears in my eyes. I silently sobbed in Will’s arms. He pulled away and kissed the side of my head before he noticed I was crying. I tried to hide my tears unsuccessfully, wiping them away subtly.

“What’s wrong?” he asked me. I couldn’t answer; all I needed was his comfort. I leapt into Will’s arms in a full on embrace. I sobbed against his chest as he comforted me, stroking my hair and giving me delicate little kisses on the top of my head. After a few moments I pulled away and dried the remaining tears. I sat down on the bed sheepishly. Why did I let everything get to me like that?

“What was that about eh?” Will asked in a caring tone. I couldn’t look at him; I just stared at my feet.

“I don’t know,” I replied sheepishly. Blood ran to my cheeks in embarrassment. I felt him stand up and his hand run down my arm. His feet came into view and as he crouched down most of his body came into view.

“Avoid his eyes Veronica,” I chanted to myself as he stroked my arm. I only ever call myself Veronica when things get serious. I closed my eyes and held them shut tight. A part of me wanted the ground to swallow me up, that way all the pain would go away. But I would have to leave Will, and that wasn’t going to happen. He has been my rock for the past few days. I think it’s time I took the pressure off of him, but how? A subconscious voice told me the answer, but I didn’t like it. I had to tell him how I feel, rather than bottling up. I’ve done that since I was a child, never told my parents anything. Then when I went into hospital I couldn’t trust anyone. It’s fair to say I’ve learnt the hard way that bottling up emotions is a burden on everybody.  I opened my eyes again and let out a deep breath. I bit my lip as I looked up at Will. He was so concerned, he actually looked cute.

“Sorry,” I began. I had to tell him, tell him everything.

“Don’t be, you’re probably feeling overwhelmed. Want to talk about it?” he inquired.

“Yeah,” I replied sheepishly. “I feel all embarrassed now; I just let it get to me”.

“Let what get to you?” Will asked.

“The past few days, the rape, and Rory returning and having to deal with him to list all the negatives, but at the same time, meeting you and getting to know the nicest, most caring family I have ever known,” I responded. “It’s a lot to take in”.

“I know,” Will replied. I went to speak again but Will stopped me. “I am incredibly sorry for earlier. I told you I would be there to help you in a heartbeat when he arrived and I went back on my word,” he paused as he stroked my cheek gently. “You are the best thing that ever happened to me and I let you down”. A single red streak fell from his eye. I felt something tug in my chest. I knew he meant it. I had never seen him cry. Kneeling to the floor I wiped his face clean and leant my forehead on his as I clutched his face.