Haunted

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𖤣𖥧𖡼𖤣𖥧 Gabriella 𖤣𖥧𖡼𖤣𖥧

"Left all these broken parts, told me I'm better off, but I'm not"

Joey had actually done it.
He'd broken up with me, taking my heart with him in the process.

It was stupid, feeling soulless without him. He was just a boy, and I was just a girl. But somehow he had engraved himself into every cell in my body and without him I was aching.

I'd somehow managed to get through Christmas dinner, I didn't eat a single bite of food and I'm sure that pleased my mam.

I couldn't get my stomach to stop churning or my body to stop shaking.

I was curled in a ball on my bed, my covers wrapped tightly around me and a comedy film on my television.

I'd never experienced heartbreak. Sure, I'd had terrible experiences in life but this felt completely different. My heart was quite literally aching in my chest.

Joey was my best friend and now he was gone. I knew he was trying to protect me, but I didn't need protection.

I'd endured a lot more shit in my life than he knew about. I wanted him back so badly. I wanted to rewind time and not let him leave. I wanted him to stop using, I wanted him to get better.

It felt like I was falling to pieces. I knew Joey loved me, he'd admitted it, but it wasn't enough. It wasn't going to save us.

As much as I loved him, I was so angry. I wanted him to be hurting the same way I was. He'd left me here, sobbing and broken, in order to fix himself.

Loving him was bad for me, but being apart from him was worse. I'd nurse him back to health as many times as I had to if it meant he'd be with me.

But he'd left.
He ended it.

I wasn't partial to crying over boys and I felt like some stupid love struck girl, but Joey Lynch wasn't just a boy. He was the air in my lungs and the blood in my veins. He was everything.

"That day I first saw you, I knew you were it."

His words were echoing in my head, pushing the knife in my heart deeper and deeper.

"I'm not okay! Is that what you want to hear? That I'm not okay."

I sobbed harder, pulling a pillow to my chest and burying my face in it. The scent of Joey assaulted my senses and the air in my lungs evaporated.

"I just think I would've remembered a face like yours."

Tears, pain, gasping for air.

"You can want that but it won't make him stop."

Memories from the past few months slammed into me like a freight train. It was a whiplash of emotion, from pain to anger to betrayal. All I wanted was him.

He was the only thing that could fix this, and he wasn't here. 

I begged my stupid heart to let him go. I wanted to forget it all. Every memory, every laugh, every touch that shocked my body with electricity.

But it wouldn't get out of my head.

Please, just let me let him go.
This is destroying me.

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short chapter because girl is so heartbroken there's nothing more to say

i missed you guys and i might have crushed my exam but who knows

i love you

xoxo

-Freyja