Unwanted. Broken. Abused

Chapter 5

((Photo above is Blake^^))

<Hope's p.o.v>

I was so scared when I woke up, but less scared when I saw Xavier and Blake. Still scared, though.

Scared they'd see my bruises and ask questions I wouldn't be able to answer.

Scared I'd accidentally tell them and drag them into my fucked up life.

Scared Harvey would find me.

For a while, me, Blake and Xavier spoke (well, I wrote) and that was the worst, because I was so scared I'd let it slip. My deadly secret.

Harvey had said if I even made friends, not only would I suffer, but they would too. So he mustn't find out about me staying here.

So I mustn't be so friendly.

So I must put up a wall.

I can't let them in.

I was too busy in my own thoughts to realize Xavier had asked me a question.

He and Blake were staring at me intently. I made a confused face and Xavier repeated himself.

"Why do you keep doing that? Looking at the door as if someones gonna barge in and kill you?"

If only he knew. I wrote:

I don't.

Xavier pulled a face.

"Seriously." I shrugged, and wrote again:

I don't.

He can't know the real reason. Xavier sighed and changed the subject.

I breathed a small sigh of relief. I knew Xavier didn't believe me, but at least he wasn't interrogating me.

Then Blake stood up and announced,

"Well, its getting late and I'm tired, so I'm gonna go now. Bye bro, Hope." He nodded slightly at me and left.

Then it was just me and Xavier.

Xavier turned to me and asked,

"So, Hope. Where do you have to be tonight?" I bit my lip. I didn't know what to say.

I got the notepad and wrote:

Is it okay if I stay here tonight?

I turned it anxiously around for Xavier to see, and bit my lip. He read the note and he grinned, and nodded.

I breathed a sigh of relief, I didn't have to sleep rough tonight.

Xavier led me to a spare room and I slumped down on the bed and almost immediately fell asleep.

* * *

I was in a pale white room and Harvey's there with me. He watches with a smile as I feel myself melting and somehow, I know it was his doing and there's nothing I can to to stop him and I can't breath and--

* * *

I awake with sweat plastering my hair to my head and I was sitting blot upright in the bed. Xavier was sitting next to me, a look of concern on his face.

"Hope.. Are you okay?" He asked.

I took a deep breath and nodded.

I am okay. I am okay. I am okay.

"Really, 'coz it didn't seem like it there." I pursed my lips and nodded again. Xavier gave me a look, then started to walk out the room, whem he turned around.

"Do you want me to stay?" I bit my lip and nodded. He pulled up a chair and sat by my bed. I felt a wave of relief wash over me, and I nodded off slowly to sleep.

* * *

When I awoke, Xavier was asleep in the chair next to me. I checked the time. It was 6:00am. I should probably leave.

I sat up, aching all over. Particularly on my eye. I waddled over to the en suite bathroom and attempted to clean myself up. I splashed water over myself and wiped my face dry with my now very mucky jumped. I sighed.

I should probably get out, now. Leave before I give any more information away. I went back to gather my belongings when I realized I didn't bring any.

I started to make my way out the door when Xavier spoke up, his voice scratchy from sleep,

"Hope, where are you going?"