the yellow version basically means THERE'S NO PERMANENT DEATHS HALLELUJAH-
WE GOT PEOPLE LIKE FELTY, WILD'S PARENTS, AND A4 SHEET ALIVE-
oh and i mean PERMANENT deaths, eraser gets killed by crystal every other day- /lh (but dr*w 4 never removed him so he can always come back like willy afton :>)
now for random loredumps about people who are now alive (yay! :>):
wild's parents (playing card and paint palette):
when their eldest (basement boy) goes homicidal, they both run and hide with wild card in a closet together, and wait for the police to arrive-
thankfully they do, and take dr*w 4 to basically solitary confinement after being like "yeah so uhh this kid's insane-"
oh and all of his family get restraining orders against him so he can never hurt any of them :)
...wildy still has trauma though- :<
but he at least has his parents to vent to about it :> (oh and btw both of em like potato so yippee :>)
felt-tip/felty and her personality-
so... felty acts a lil bit bratty sometimes-
not as much as she used to (thanks to plastic sheet spoiling her A LOT.) but she does get jealous easily-
at first she didn't like sunny or potato much because she didn't wanna lose the attention of her older brother (marker's VERY attached to her, having literally saved her life and all-)
...now her and sunny are practically besties-
felt-tip's fifteen, the same age as foliage's younger sister (YEP, DROPPING THAT SHE HAS A YOUNGER SISTER TOO-)
and a bit more serious: felt-tip kinda hates herself for having blindly trusted her mother for so long, and that her hateful beliefs kinda rubbed onto her...
also she doesn't like the nickname felty as much anymore as in her own words: "i'm not a kid anymore!"
the angst central of this au: LAMP.
she DEEPLY regrets everything she ever did, and desperately wants to apologize to everyone she's hurt and try to make things right
HOWEVER: only foliage and zen are willing to speak to her. serenity, dark, and danger all refuse to, and she knows that... she can't blame them either.
she knows what she did.
lamp doesn't really have anyone to talk to, as her sister's too occupied with her somewhat sadistic bestie-
so... she's all alone with her guilt. no-one to talk to, no-one to help her.
though maybe she ISN'T the only person with that issue...
...
What was I thinking?
That day at school was terrible, my class got into a massive argument over some bullshit that wasn't even that important, and when I pointed that out...
...they all ignored me.
And that... I think that made me snap. I remember walking in through the front door, not even saying hi as I watched my parents be so proud of my brother...
Why couldn't I be as happy as him?
There was something wrong with me... not just that I couldn't feel happy no matter what, but... there's a level of psychopathy that few have: attempting to kill their own family.
And... that's what I did. I found a gun, and then it all... I don't even know. Before I knew it, I was roaming the halls... looking for any of them. Anyone to feel even the smallest bit of control over.
Control... THAT'S ALL THIS BOILS DOWN TO, ISN'T IT?! My whole life, I've wanted everything to be in MY control. It all had to go my way, otherwise what was the fucking point?!
But... now look. Everyday, I wake up in some padded room, and am left to my own thoughts. I don't even get to socialize anymore... not like I ever really did. Most people weren't interesting enough...
I couldn't control them- oh my god... WHY AM I LIKE THIS?! Why is it that I see people as pawns to get what I want, and not as people?
Anyways... not like I can do any of that. I've been in this place for almost ten years now, and yet... it doesn't get any easier. Well, not like I can ever be rehabiliated into society.
Not when I'm like this, at least.
...
I'm going even more insane, aren't I...? Or am I actually starting to become SANE? I don't know anymore... when will this end?
