I'll Steal You Flowers (Pierce the Veil)

Chapter 29

I know you're dead inside, but you make me feel alive

Lily's POV

That night my dreams weren't dreams at all, though they weren't my usual nightmares. That night I was warped back a few hours to the beach. My dream was merely my memories of Vic and I.

"Are you taking more pictures of me again?" he said and laughed. I let the camera hang around my neck and smiled. Vic wasn't angry, if anything he was amused.

"What can I say? You're photogenic, therefore you are my new model." I said and stepped forward, letting the waves lap over my feet. Vic smiled and stepped next to me.

"Do you even have a picture of me looking at the camera?" He asked. I laughed.

"No, that's the point of candids." I said.

"Well here." He said and turned to face me. I picked up my camera again and pointed it towards Vic, backing up to get the scenery. He was smiling this big cute smile, a smile so big I couldn't help but smile as I took the picture. He kept switching up poses and expressions, some serious and some silly.

"Okay, how about this?" I said and turned around. I held the camera out and hoped that we were both in the frame and both looked good. I clicked the shutter and after I did I heard Vic run up to me, putting his head on my shoulder. I clicked the shutter again and again until I heard a beep.

"What happened?" Vic asked. I looked at the camera and the message flashing on the screen. Memory full.

"I already had a bunch of pictures on here already and we just filled the rest of the camera." I said. Vic laughed.

"At least we got what we did." He said. Fast forward a few minutes and we were both sitting in the sand, digging our toes into the cold sand. Our hips were touching and the wind was blowing. I couldn't help but be reminded of the night we sat together outside and fell asleep in nature together. I wanted to do what I did then and put my head and his shoulder. But I didn't and many thoughts swirled through my mind.

"This was a great day." He said. Out of the corner of my eye I could see that he was looking at me, but turned to face the ocean again.

"It was." I said and looked at him. I was kinda glad that everyone had plans.

I sat up and turned my alarm off, smiling to myself. Sitting on the beach I felt something. For a while I thought that I might have feelings for Vic, feelings stretching past friends. But how would I know? The biggest example of love in my life has fallen apart and my first 'love' cheated on me. I thought I fell in love with Jake, but obviously I was wrong. Maybe I always will be.

I'm probably not meant for love, but I doubt Vic would ever feel that way about me. Everything we've gone through together, I feel that he feels we're just friends. I'm fine with that I guess. I'll probably move on and enjoy our friendship together. Maybe I'll find a new guy. I'll probably stay single through high school, and I really don't mind. I don't really need someone to make me happy. But the thought of Vic smiling at me yesterday sent butterflies through me. What is wrong with me?

But I have to get ready for school. When I got downstairs my mom was already dressed and sipping her coffee while reading a book. "Hey mom, work today?" I asked, even though I already know the answer.

"Yep, can't take every day off." she said. I sat down and made myself cereal. Though, I was surprised when my mom sat across from me. We started to talk about college, the one 45 minutes away that I really wanted to go to in particular. It was an art type of school with a good photography program. Of course there are other schools but this one stands out to me the most. Eventually it got a little late, and my mom had to leave.