I'll Steal You Flowers (Pierce the Veil)

Chapter 39

Guess who's back, back again, Joolz is back, tell a friend.

So hey guys, I'm back and better than ever. Since the release of Misadventures has quickly dragged me back into the pit of emo-ness I decided it was time for the revival. After all, I couldn't just let my story sit here unfinished forever. So I'm going to start working on it again as much as possible and I'll keep you all updated on the story and on me (meaning if I have the time to write and stuff) and I hope you guys enjoy this new chapter!

Lily's POV

"I'm so happy we got to hang out again." Tony said. Ever since Vic and I started going out I haven't been able to hang out with my best friend and that's the only thing bringing down the mood lately. I guess when you start dating someone everything sort of stops. "So how's Vic." Tony said raising his eyebrows. I rolled my eyes. Why does everyone always want to know about him and me? I mean its not like anything is super different. Now we're just... together.

"He's the same as he was before we started dating. Nothing's changed." I said. He rolled his eyes as he changed the song on the cd player.

"Fine, fine, I'm sorry. But how are things lately, I barely see you." He said. I sighed a bit but smiled as everything kind of raced through my mind.

"I've been really happy, but a lot of things are happening. Between school, a relationship, and sorting out shit with colleges all on top of my current family situation. All that fun stuff." I said with a big smile. I guess its better to have a lot of things going on than to be trapped in nothing. He looked down at the ground in a weird way.

"What are you thinking about for college?" He asked. That's why. We all know in the back of our minds that we're going to college and we only have a little bit over a year together left. We're not all gonna end up at the same school and its really scary to think about. How can something so good be so temporary?

"Mostly schools in California and a couple on the east coast." I said, recalling the schools that I actually liked.

"East coast!" He said, shocked. I sighed. This was a topic I hoped we could talk about later on, maybe next year. Maybe never. But I guess there's no getting out of this.

"Nothing's permanent yet, plus I do want to stay here. And what about you? You can't all plan on going to the same college together can you?" I said. Tony looked down and played with his fingers. The fingers. Something's defiantly going on.

"Actually Lil... Jaime and I got a deal. After we graduate we're joining a band. We're not going to college just yet." He said, now it was my turn to be shocked. A band? Not going to college? I tried to push my worry down because Tony is an amazing guitarist. Thinking of the first time I heard him play makes me so happy.

"That's... that's awesome Tony. You guys have already got your dream in your grasp." I said with a smile. So maybe I'll be able to still see them if I stay here. I haven't wanted to think about college too much lately, especially what it would do to my relationship and friendships. A veil of silence slowly draped itself over us, as the only sound was the ceiling fan spinning round and round.

"Lily?" Tony said, and I was afraid of what was going to follow that. It could only be something that's going to make me want to cry. I looked up at him, telling him to go on without even saying a word. "Do you think we're all going to still be friends once we start college?" He asked and my gaze dropped back down to my hands. I wanted to tell the truth, that I don't know, I'm not sure. Most likely not. But the last thing I would ever want to do is upset Tony.

"Of course we will Tone. We've all been through a lot together already. The bond that we all have is too strong to be broken at this point." I said, trying to carve those words into my mind. We'll all be together. We'll all be alright. They're words that I don't want to forget and words that I hope are true. When Tony smiled at me I knew I had been convincing.

"You're right." He said shaking his head. "I'm just so afraid that we'll all drift apart and... and I don't know." He finished, looking down.

"There's no use in being afraid of the future Tone. Whatever is meant to happen, will happen." I said and let the words echo throughout every empty space.

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Those are words I really took into consideration throughout the day. We can't be afraid of the future because what ever is going to happen is going to happen. I'm a firm believer in 'if its meant to be it'll happen' and that in the end God will lead me to the right path, so what's the point in being scared. If I'm meant to go to the same college as my friends it'll happen and if I'm meant to go to the best school possible, even if it is on the other side of the country, then it'll happen. There's no use in trying to change fate.

The night air is starting to chill and I only now realize this as it bites at my face, whipping my hair to the side. But in a way it's comforting and relaxing, seeing nothing but the stars and being able to do nothing but think. I know in the past that I've talked about how thinking is dangerous and can only lead to bad things, but in reality our thoughts are one of the only things we cant run from.

I can't escape the wonder of what life is going to be like in a year. Where I'll be, who I'll be with, and how I'll be with those people. Most likely I'll still be here, still with the same people, but nothing will be the same. Jaime and Tony are going to have to figure out a way to tell everyone that they aren't going to college, whatever Skylar and Mike have is going to be ripped apart when she goes to college and he's still stuck in high school (if they even do have a thing going on), and who knows where I'll stand with Vic. Maybe we'll be broken up in a week, maybe we'll last through college. How the hell am I suppose to know?

I barely even know what I want to do for the rest of my life. I see myself doing so many things, but there's not one that stands out and screams at me. Maybe I could be a photographer, or a designer, or even a writer. Then what about my friends? What the hell are they going to do with their lives? I reached out and touched the cold plastic-metal like material that my balcony is made of, something to shock my system. I can't run from my thoughts, but I need to know how to stop them. Since it's sometime around midnight, I guess this is a good time to go in, so I stood up in the whirling wind and looked to the stars once more, hoping that I could learn to let them guide me.

Short and not too much, I know, but a good way for me to get the ball rolling again. I hope you guys enjoyed this and are prepared for everything to come!!

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