Sin and love

Going back to italy

Alexia

I sat up straight in the bed I had been staying in for the past two days. My brothers and Luca stayed most of the time, making sure that I would not get up if it was not to go to the bathroom.

I choke my head and moved to the side of the bed, my feet hitting the cold floor. Enough was enough. I would not stay und this bed even a minute longer. My legs felt a bit weak, which was probably because I had been living on my reserves for the past few days.

Dad had told me that he had placed a few of my clothes in the wardrobe in my room so I made my way over there and looked through the things inside. I wanted to feel like myself again and the first step for that was changing out of those clothes.

I pulled out one black dress pants and a white v neck long sleeve before changing into that. I pulled on some socks and decided to skip shoes because I would be staying inside today. I just wanted to be able to leave my room again.

I brushed my hair and applied a bit of make up before I then left my room. The house was much smaller than the last one we had stayed in, but it also felt more comfortable. Maybe it was about the fact that in a house with so many room and so little people it just feels too much.

I'm not sure.

The hallway was much shorter than the one at the other house and I walked directly into the living room. My brothers he's snapped up when the felt my presence and Pedro was about to open his mouth when I said something.

"No I am not going back into the bed. I'm feeling better and my concussion is gone by now, I'm promise if I get tired or exhausted I will lay down. But for now I gel better" I made my way over to them while saying all that and sat down in between my brothers.

"Are you sure that you are fine Hermana" Pedro asked me and I nodded again, smiling at him. "I'm sure, now what are you doing" I turned my head toward the TV. "We are watching a football game. Dad, is in his office and Luca and Alex are working one something. So that leaves us to watch a game"

I nodded at his words and leaned my head against Nikos shoulder. "You're sure that you are fine" Niko asked and I rolled my eyes, simply just nodding as an answer.

We continued watching the game for a while and I was just enjoying the company of my brothers. A few weeks ago I would have never thought that I would find out I had some. While when I was growing up it was all I wanted to have. Siblings.

I would love to asked my mother why she kept all that away from me. What was there to protect me from? My father had feelings for her and she got him as it seems, so what scared her so much that she left?

I felt like what she was telling me in the letter was not the complete truth, like there was something else. Something we did not know about. I closed my eyes and smiled at the way my brothers were yelling when the team got close to scoring and how they cursed when the others did.

It was everything I had imagined. I had a family and they loved me just as I loved them. They were everything I could have dreamed about and wanted my whole life. And right now I was just happy. Here in Spain, which was somehow a part of me. My home. My country.

"Dad, everything alright" I heard Pedro asked and sat up straight. "Alexia, mi niña, are you sure you feel well enough" he asked, walking toward us and placing a kiss on top of my head.

I closed my eyes again and smiled. "Sí, I'm sure I'm fine again" I told him and looked up at him. "That good. Where are Luca and Alex" he asked taking a seat in one of the armchairs. Pedro had stoped the game and turned toward my father.

"We are here matteo. Is everything alright" Luca asked as he entered the room. My gaze met his and for a moment I saw worry in his eyes before he looked angry at me. "Should you not be in bed alexia" he asked as he walked toward the other couch and sat down with Alex next to him.

"Yes I'm sure Luca" I told him and crossed my armes in front of my chest leaning back against the couch. "Mhhh" he nodded and turned his gaze toward my father. "I was waiting for you all to be here, so that I can tell you all at once"

"What should you tell us" Niko asked and looked at my father waiting for an answer. Something was up, I could see it in his gaze and the way it lingered on me. He felt guilty and we all would find out why soon.

"I talked with your father Luca. Ace and I have decided it's best if we all fly to Italy in soon and stay there for a few weeks. I cannot leave my Mafia alone that long, but Angles will keep the upper hand and deal with the most important stuff while I am gone with all of you"

"We are going back to Italy?" I asked him, my voice quiet. I wanted to stay here, to get to know my home country and this part of myself. "Yes, now that you are better I will arrange for us to fly over there tomorrow. Pack everything you need and we will to Italy first thing in the morning"

Dad got up and left the room before any of us could say anything about it. I looked after him shocked. "You should go and lay back down, if we are to fly tomorrow we should call the doctor again to check up on you" Luca said and reached further his phone.

"You don't need to, I'm fine Luca" I yelled the last part and Niko chugged beside me. "I calling the doctor" he still said and I fell back against the couch with a big huff.