Finding you within me

chapter four

chapter four

The day is going slower than I expected it would, not that I thought it would go fast. Although I quite like going to school. Mum has been home schooling me with this new husband for at least two months, and well let's say it was the other way round. I was teaching my mum stuff so i was glad when she finally let me go to school but i'm going to miss being able to watch tv and not getting homework.

And in every lesson so far I have had to go up to the front and introduce myself, I did as Ryan said and imagined no one was there – but it was hard as they where all staring at me. I was kinda getting tired of it, it wouldn't be as bad if all I had to do was say my name ...but they where asking me questions like "what is you favourite colour? and who is your favourite superhero and one time what is your favourite cheese?"

So I was very happy when the bell rang for lunch, and I waited in the corridor for Daisy; it didn't take her long to get here, where we've been talking since.

'No but seriously who asks those types of quetions?' she let out another laugh.

'oh my god sounds like you have had a fun day.' I throw the crusts from my sandwich into the nearest bin and go back to the wall. Even though it was spring and we should be outside it was freezing cold today so we thought indoors was the best option.

'It was horrible!' I let the smile onto my face letting my face contradict what i was saying.

'oh have you seen Mr Neals yet?' she takes another bite out of her sandwich and I shake my head.'Total Fitty.'

'What does he teach?' she puts her hand over her mouth while she finishes chewing 'Maths'

'I have that next lesson dunno if it's with him though'

'you better hope you do' Her eyes shine like they did when she saw Ryan

'Isn't it a bit weird you crushing on teachers?' I'm pretty sure her dad wouldn't like her going out with a teacher.

'I'm not crushing on him, he is just really sexy' I let out a laugh

'Alright I've got a question for you'

'Ask away' She chucks her crusts into the bin and pulls out an apple.

'Ryan or Mr neals?'

'Ryan of course he tops everyone!'

'What about Zac Effron or taylor lautner or colton haynes?' they where at the top of hotties list!

'Nope Ryan tops them all! What about you then what do you think?'

'Well I haven't seen Mr Neals yet but Ryan is quite cute.'

'See you do like Ryan!' She spits some of her apple juice into my face and I wipe it off

'Nope I told you he's not my type.' Her face turns into a frown.

'Do you have a type at all?' I shake my head 'I guess he took that away from you.'

'It's not just him...it's that love never works  and no man's worth the pain it puts you through.' I let out a sigh as I know who I'm talking about who fucked me up so hard I can't love and its two people.

'But it's Ryan! You don't know him but he's amazing, he's sporty he's sweet!' I smile at how she thinks that's enough.

'I know I have met him,'

'What?When?'

'I sit next to him in form time.'

'So you know he's amazing he's like heaven.'