Finding you within me

Chapter 18

Lydia's PoV :

I sit on the swing letting it rock back and forth on the bull of my feet. The big tree was standing strong the pink blossom coming through making Spring truly here. This place used to make me feel calm but now it just confuses me even more.

'Hey Lydia.' Since agreeing to be friend a few days ago my attitude towards him has changed, I've tried to be nice but it still feels weird. Daisy tells me to give him more time and I agree with her as he is easy to talk to. Sometimes it feels like we could be so close and other times I get this strange feeling inside my chest I don't know if it's a good feeling or a worry about being hurt but it stick in my chest sometime. We would be having a normal conversation and it would appear, sometime we would be talking about something so random and it would be such a good conversation till the feeling happened.

'Ryan, what you doing here?'

'Just wanted to go on a walk.' He walked in front of me brushing his brown hair out of his face. A smile appears to my face he always does that. 'What about you miss croft may I ask why you are in hear?'

'Trying to find myself I guess.'

'You still on that mission?'

'Yes and I'm not gonna stop until it's done.' He sighs before sitting on the swing next to mine.

'I don't know why you are so obsessed with that.'

'We start our life's next year and I know what I want to do job wise but the rest is foggy I guess.'

'Hmm well ok then.' I can't help but look at him and he can't help but look at me back.

'What?'

'Nothing,' he shakes his head and let's out a little laugh.

'No tell me why was you looking at me?'

'I could ask you the same question, so miss croft why was you looking at me?'

'Cause your just that ugly I can't help but look at you.' He runs his hands through his hair again.

'Haha very funny.' We sit there looking at each other again. It isn't an uncomfortable silence thought, it' like we could just sit there at the moment without a care and it would be Ok.

'Do you know what you are going to do about those rumours?'

'Well Alex said he's telling people we didn't do anything, but I don't think they will be believing him any time soon.' He nods in reply

'I seriously didn't do anything Ryan!' I felt like I needed him to understand it wasn't me I didn't do anything, like I didn't want to hurt him. But I don't think I can hurt him.

'I believe you, what ever you say I will believe.' My heart rate beats fast with every word and I fall a little deeper into his eyes.

'That's good then.' He stands up pulling me off the swing with him and dragging me under the tress.

'What are you doing would you let me go this could count as harassment!' He lets out a little laugh it was quite adorable really but not in that omg I love him adorable just you know noticing him

'We are going to go swimming!' I look to the shallow river below before looking back up at him

'In what?' He looks back to the pond with a look of amusement on his face

'I didn't bring my costume.'  He removes his top, letting his muscular chest show. I look away at some houses near by.

'Neither did I.' I take off my jacket leaving it on the side He suddenly pushes me forward into the river and I let out a scream of laughter. I really hope this top won't go see through.

Memories of doing this with Alex come up but I ignore the pain in my chest  for him.

I turn to look at him and he splashes me down with water. I try to splash him back. Waiting for our full on water fight to break off.

After around ten minutes of fighting I go to push him, letting him fall to the ground but he grabs onto my arm letting me go down with him. I let out a nervous laugh as our eyes meet contact before pushing myself off his chest and I walk into the side grabbing my jacket and putting it on

'I'm so cold, that water is freezing.'  He runs his hand through his soggy hair.

'Yeah it is.'  He walk out putting his top back on. 'Ok let's get some food then it on me.' I follow him for some reason, this is the part where I usually take off but I don't want to.