Love without colour

A younger version of myself

Melody's P.O.V

Someone was banging and dancing loudly. Y'all want to know how I know this, cause the fool was doing it in my head. Some idiot was having a banging ass party in my head! Either that or I died and woke up in hell. Whichever it was, I didn't like it.

Voices started breaking through the banging and dancing, it sounded very far away like I was in a long tunnel and there were people talking at the end of it. I recognised the voices as Harmony's and Richie's. I wasn't sure where I was, or how Richie found me, so I kept my eyes closed and listened to them talking.

"She's going to be ok, the doctor said that once the drug works its way out of her system, she'll wake up."

What drugs, what were they talking about?

"This is a bad idea Richie, maybe I should take her home with me. If she wakes up in your bed she is going to freak out, and then there's Megan. It might be all too much for."

Harmony sounded panicky and very worried. I tried my best not to move when she said that I was in his bed. What the hell was I do in his bed? I had so many questions and the only way to get them answered was to open my eyes, but I wasn't ready to do that just yet.

"Yeah, well tough, I don't give a shit if it's too much for her. I'm sick of her running, when I'm finish filling her in on what she ran away from, she'll be free to take flight if that's what she wants to do. But for now she's staying here until I finish saying what I have to say to her, even if it mean tying her cute ass to the bed."

I've never heard Richie so angry before, I started feeling guilty and really ashamed of my actions. I should never have ran, but at the time I was confused and unsure of my feelings. Every emotion that he invoked in me was so new and scary, I didn't know who he was, but I knew that I loved him, I mean really loved him and that scared the shit out of me.

"Don't you think Isabelle will have something to say, to having another woman in her boyfriend's bed?"

My heart stopped for a few seconds and it took everything in me not to react to Harmony's statement. He has a girlfriend? It shouldn't have come as a surprise to me... and it's what I wanted right, for him to move on and be with someone else? Then why did my heart feel like it was dying?

When I started remembering it was scary, at random times of the day or night I would get hit with a flood of memories, followed by very strong emotions. If I thought what I felt for Richie was just love I was wrong, whatever my feelings were for him, it was way beyond love. I kept away from him and never contacted him, telling myself that it was for the best, that he must hate me for running from him. When in truth, I was just scared.

"You don't have the right to be jealous for her, she made her bed now she has to lie in it...alone."

He turned on his heel and walked out of the room and a while after I heard the faint sound of a child crying.

"You can give up the act now, Deedee, I know you're not sleeping."

I felt the bed dip next to me, so I opened my eyes and looked at Harmony. She was smiling, but I couldn't bring myself to return it.

"He's got a girlfriend?"

It was all I could say, and just saying it burnt me.

"Yes, he does."

My throat closed up and I found it hard to swallow. My tears just started falling and as much as I tried to hold it back, I couldn't.

"Oh my god Har, he hates me!"