Love without colour

Mommy, daddy morning

Melody P.O.V

Every night I found myself in his arms and in his bed, we might not be having sex, but it still felt wrong. Isabelle might not be my friend, but I ain't got nothing against her, she seemed like a very nice person. Maybe we could have been friends if we weren't in love with the same guy. I ain't know if you'd call what Richie's been doing with me cheating, but it sure as hell felt like it.

I knew that he was waiting on me to tell him that I'm ready to be with him, and I felt sorry for Isabelle that she had to be part of our drama. But to tell y'all the truth, I ain't so sure that we should be together. Our relationship ain't done nothing but make us miserable, corrupt our lives and separated us from the people who loved us.

I envy Isabelle, she was perfect for him, there was no complications in their relationship. Ain't no one telling her not to love him because he's from a different world from her, the colour of her skin is not a problem to his family or the outside world. She's free to love him without any of the prejudice I had to face. No one will ever mistake her for the maid, or think she's uneducated because of her skin colour. And I bet his mother would approve of her, she would be proud to claim her and parade her around. Inviting her into her rich bitch society. A colour girl from the ghetto ain't never gonna make the cut.

Richie sighed from behind me, pulling me closer to him. I knew he was still sleeping, but it still amazed me how he knew every time I'm bout to escape from his bed. It doesn't matter what time of the day or night it was if I ever think about escaping from his bed his hold on me would tighten.

It felt good being in his arms, I felt protected and loved. I ain't never felt that way with anyone before. He was my safe place. Does any of y'all have that one person that drives you to the brink of insanity, but you love em anyway? That entire year I spent apart from him was painful, I dreamt about him every night, even before my memories returned and let me tell y'all some of those dreams had me taking cold showers for days. But, I missed him like crazy. God, how I missed him.

I still can't believe that we were at the same college for an entire year and we ain't never came across each other. But, I'm glad that we found each other again, or I might never have known about Megan.

I still haven't talked to Harmony since I found out that she kept my daughter's existence from me. As for my parents, I just called them once to let them know that they too were on my shit list. They tried to tell me that they did it for me, but I hanged up, not wanting to hear any of their bullshit. Don't be looking at me like that, they done hide the existence of my child from me. Y'all telling me y'all wouldn't have done the same thing?

My entire world was crashing down right before my eyes and I didn't know how to make it stop. I felt like I couldn't trust anyone anymore. As for Jaxson and what he tried to do to me, that son-of-a-bitch got his coming. I promise y'all, when I see that dumbass nigga, Imma kick his ass right back in his mama's womb. Or Imma have some guy drug him and do back to him what he's been doing to us girls, see how he likes it.

Anyway, I guess y'all must be wondering what subjects I'm studying at college? Well, I'm majoring in computer science and design technology, as well as minoring in physics and business. Bet y'all though I was a dumbass, y'all can pick y'all mouths up off of the floor now. I worked hard to get where I was without any help from anyone. All my achievements I got those babies on my own. Take that all you judgmental bitches out there, who thinks that a black girl from the ghetto can't make better of her life. I might not have been to my high school graduation, but I got my diploma nonetheless. I left high school with a 6.0 GPA, so all the colleges I applied for, I got accepted into to. But Yale was always my first choice.